too much thought, too little guts to do

i have alot in mind, too much to be kept it all to myself yet to important to let it out. i dunno, i guess i'll jz have to put my mind into something else.
i have this crazy idea, n i dun know what shud i do about it...hm...of'cuz it's not something bad or evil but it's kinda stupid to be jz right...i'm out of my mind...alot alot alot alot more things in my mind now...not stress out cuz i dun stress that easily but kinda like it's pulling my mind not knowing what to do n coin toss jz can't tell me what to do anymore...i feel like talking to someone but yet i'm too too too lazy to say hi...geez...i'm so tired yet eyes to wide to jz sit back n relax my mind full of actions yet my body is too heavy to move...ARGGHHHHHH...!!!!

n again bad things always happen the split second u think of it...n the good thing...?well the moment u plan for the worst, the good things disappear n let all the fun for the bad stuff...tell me is that a challenge an obstacle or a joke from above...?geez...life is full of what u can't imagine but still even if life throws me a rotten apple i'll dodge n take it n throw it back...i wun bow to fate i control fate, my fate...

well though not everything is being let out but i still feel slightly better...atleast better than before...so i'll come again when i feel like i'm going to kill someone...haha....

dooms day

are you lonesome tonight...~~..nah...not really...jz kinda nervous i'm probably gonna get my results tomorrow n i can't really sleep, i'm even more nervous than going out with some hot chicks...DARN..!!!whats gotten into my mind...tomorrow will be judgement day either it wud be heaven or hell for me...well i have a lil confidence this time...but yet the more confidence i have the more i fear...geez...speaking of mixed feelings...but it's also a good news cuz i've been anxious for this moment since the very 1st day i took the exam...well jz came back home, went out with few friends trying to relax ourself abit...but clearly it's not working very well i'm still awake...trying to crap my heads out...

well i watched a tv drama jz now, i can't remember it's name...acted by myolie wu n bosco wong...i think u know which one i'm talking about...well, after watching the drama it was like i know everything cuz obviously they're acting infront of me n i shud have known it for sure but inside they jz keep misunderstanding each other(not for real in mean in the series), finally for so many year i realised that outsider really can see things clearer than whos involved in that matter...but still we always thinks that we understand things more than any one else in this tiny lil world...but hey, who wud want to listen to an outsider...?maybe i'll try to listen nex time...

i guess this is what i'm feeling n thinking n doing today...what else...nothing...ok than i'll leave the rest of my life to ur imagination...but dun dream of something bad about me...u'll jz end up dissapointing urself...till than...catch ya nex time...

the greeeeeeen stuff....

do u see some green stuff comin of my hair do u...?well i do...and it's all over my back saying...B.O.R.I.N.G....thats it boring, at 1st i thought i was GNIROB cuz i was looking at the mirror, i was like "what the hell"...oh, than i realise that it shud be boring instead of gnirob, if it mean something to anyone...well, the point is i'm so bored that green stuff growing of my back saying boring...man..i wish class starts faster cuz i need to use my brain for something...

well back before class ended before new year, i wud wake up every morning trying to look good for the day, shinnin my shoe, lookin into the mirror, wash myself up...hoping to look my best...for the nice n shinny day...but now, i woke up everyday in the afternoon, waiting for time to pass n than watch TV, i feel my senses rotting everyday, i feel my bones hard enough to beat the drum n i feel stupid everyday...what the...it's new year...!!!geez...really wish i'm good for something...which i am but i can't think of any jz yet, cuz most of my time are spent sleeping...

n again i hike to pantai kerachut with my frens...it's a nice n shinny day like everyday cept' that i woke up earlier(i din actually sleep at all) we went there hike all the way to the beach n it was jz us, the beach is all ours, we had our meals n than we went to sleep in the nice cooling hall there...it's really cool very very cool i could sleep all day, untill my fren wake me up to dive into the sea...we found a nice cool spot to lay stuff around n than i jump into the sea n sit...thats it sit...n enjoy the view n the sea...n than they saw this jellyfish swimming up shore man i'm shocked, the memory of the electrifying sting of the jellyfish scare me off shore so than i decided to sit back beside in this nice cool spot n again sleep...n than we went back to bath n than rest awhile n than hike our way back...we had our dinner at new world park...n after i went back home i felt soooo tire that i actually slept earlier...but again i woke up at 2 today...man it's in my blood...dang...!!!

oh well this is my life, oh n one more thing the game plan was nice, watch it...n again...i'm going back to the TV...till than u might see the green thing all over my head....bye...

part 2 2007 wrapper....

well this probably shud be part 2...ok than it's part 2 of my last post...but it's gonna be short i'm not really in the mood for long boring words pouring down on ur poor soul, i'm feeling good today...

after the camp...i think it shud be the christmas party that i shud be talking about...well, it was nothing big, it's something more of a small bbq party with some frens n thats it...that shud be it...oh n i have to send one of my fren's family to the airport...in the morning...

than on new years eve i...went to my uncle's place having some fun happy new year gathering with all of my family members...it was great...good food which my aunt's fren cooked jzpanese food for us, well, she's from japan, actually married to japan...she's a family fren...with a cute daughter...i mean real cute cuz she's real young, probably 8 or something...after that went to meet my frens for the real crazy stuff...we went to BED...for some who dun know whats n wheres bed, well, it's a something like a place where young ppl hang-out with music n booze...as for ur info i'm not a booze kind of guy, but had some cocktail stuff back there...after that we went to lio's for some drinks again...n than to a mamak for some chill n food...nothing beats mamak after a long night of craziness...jz like everytime me n my fren's finished gaming n the next stop is mamak...

well that kinda wrapped up everything i did b4 2008...n now it's 2008...one fine year to start with...hopefully i'm gonna make changes this year...hopefully this year there is more advanture...n less heartbreak...n everyone lives happily ever after...n tune in for whats up for year 2008...thank you...bye....

by the way i'm not a camera guy...so i'm sorry that u jz gotta imagine what i've done thus far...i'll try to change this year...

2007 wrapper part 1

oh happy new year guys...!!!
now it's time for me to wrap up things that i've done last year...
oh ya i stopped at the Bangkok holiday, so i'll continue from there...so after that nothing real big actually happened so me n my frens decided that we'll camp out at kerachut for a night, finally my dreams come true, to really camp out in the wild or beside the sea...here goes the story that is truely one great memory for me for the rest of my life...

well the story goes like every other story, it start of with a sunny day, me, wei yang, n weng yew is going to start our journey to do n to try what most teenagers today would not do, we're going to camp...well u may think that kerachut is not a big deal, but...it'll get exciting later on...

n so we went to the place where we would register to go for camping at the registration area...n guess what...we can't camp at kerachut cuz it's fully booked, n the only option left is monkey beach n teluk kampi...well since we went to monkey beach b4 n it wasn't a good idea to go again n than going back is not really an option at all, so we went to teluk kampi...it's near kerachut so we figured that it wun be such a hard hike at all, but it's more than hard it's nightmare...but a sweet one...an advanture most boys would wan to do, specially after we watched national treasure...so than after more than an hour hike we reahced kerachut...it was an easy hike, we rest for a moment, n than we continue on we dun wan to trap in the forest in the middle on the night...well we start of by searching for the way to teluk kampi...it was a small small small pathway...n a very very very steep one...it is one hack of a hike so hard that i nearly give up...seriously if u try it once u wun wan to do it again, it wud be easy if we're well equiped or well prepared...but the fact is we weren't me n wei yang are wearing sandals n slippers n than we have to carry sleeping bag n tent n a bag of nasi kandar that we bought earlier for our dinner haha...yup we din have any cooking gear, we jz brought our shirts n tent n ourself, n i din even bring my tower so u know how hard the hike wud be...ok back to the hike...it was hardcore till the end...but we still manage to follow the markings that show us to kampi for awhile...yup for awhile...we got lost after hiking down some way n lost track of the markings...n we reach a cliff or something like that but a short one so we decided to climb down the cliff n move along the coast so i climbed down 1st n than they wud slowly pass things down n than we wud come down slowly one by one...we managed to clear level one...n there is level 2 ahead though it looks easier but i think it's much harder than the last one...n i slipped but the fall wasn't too bad...but when i reach the low land i found out that i'm burned by the stupid caterpiller that i saw earlier when i climbed down the cliff...n it was burning n it feels jz like a jelly fish sting but no use crying in the middle of no where...but...we finally see water...it's the sea...so we jumped along the rocks besides the sea slowly one by one we jumped n finally we reach our destination...n it's paradise...it's beautiful, n it makes all the hardwork worth while we rest for awhile n we saw 2 people camping so we decided to be their neighbour n we set up our tent beside them...after that i m so tired that i straight away sleep in the tent leaving wei yang n weng yew to do their stuff...they explore the place n play by the sea...n when i woke up, well i joined them for awhile...n than we went to bath at a river...they have this barrel thing that store waters from the river so we bath there...n it is like the best bath i ever had maybe i'm too dirty n the water is so cooling it makes me feel so alive...after that it's time to have dinner, it's time for nasi kandar...hahaha...yea the nasi kandar is still with us n it taste soooo good, i guess i was jz too hungry...after that we talked for awhile...n when it turn dark we went inside the tent n sleep...it's not really a very good night sleep but we still manage to get some rest...n b4 i really sleep i looked up to the sky n i saw the most beautiful stars ever...it was like in NS time but this one...it's a real adventure's star...so beautiful that it's like telling me that i've done something, i've achieved something...but right after that i fell into a good night sleep, that is not so good...but we still manage to sleep for 12 hours from 8 at night to 8 in the morning...n than it's time for breakfast...a piece of bread...n thats it...n we n our neighbour figured that it wud be best if we hitch a boat ride to kerachut n than only we hike back cuz the hike is really very very hard...n the lost memory is still fresh in our minds...so we went on a kind fisherman's boat n he fetch us back to kerachut with the price of 20 bucks...well he needed to fuel his boat, so it's reasonable that we pay him for the trouble cause, well we rest for awhile at kerachut n wei yang n weng yew decided to go watch some turtles n i decided that i'll wait for them...while i was waiting for them, a family of some malay people asked for my help to build their tent, so i went to help them...n they gave me some ketupat as a reward...haha...jz what i need for breakfast haha...after they came back n we rest for awhile more, we than hit the road...n...what that is interesting is that a dog guided on our way back to it stopped when we stopped n it move when we say go...how nice of him...well at least we have another accompany us back...

finally we reached civilisation...n the 1st thing in our mind is food...so we went to new world park for....char koey teow...n...duck rice...my god it was good...after that we went back...home...n sleep....haha....thats it....

n now i feel tired...i'll finish wrapping things up on my next post...bye...
n good night...i really have to hit the sack...