the freedom's junkyard...

freedom junkyard...
now, no more than a regular junkyard...
oh well, once in awhile the keeper comes in n sweep some dirt of his back...
leaving behind words that meant so little...
yet expresses alot of feelings...
yes...feelings...
in words...left behind by the keeper...
once in a while some stray comes in browse through the junkyard for something useful...
or entertaining piece of crap at least, but little does he noe that...
junkyard no matter how well renovated or cleaned is still a junkyard...
wasted words n thoughts left behind by the keeper...
for the freedom of the keeper, n others, if truly understands what the keeper meant all this time...
well, though full of crap...sometimes one may find something quite different from the other junk...
sometimes music flow softly through the junkyard...
sometimes wisdom of the keeper is engraved on this cracked walls...
sometimes sentimental echos can be heard as if the wind is telling something...
sometimes "emo" wave ripple across the vast wasteland...
sometimes..some trash note jz to make the keeper feel much better...
but when the keeper leave his boring junkyard...
to the world we all called reality...
he is no more but another man...
not the owner of some vast junkyard...
not someone with the freedom everyone dreamed for...
n words n thoughts cannot jz comes out of his mouth...
a world where everyone is bound to something...
something we cannot see...something we can only feel...
gravity...
from earth...
from other ppl...
from ourself...
to not let us dream...
to not let us speak...
as we all live in what we called reality...
but once in awhile...we see ppl who seemingly defy logic...
ppl we envy...
ppl with true freedom...
ppl we envy yet annoyed by their carefree thoughts..
cuz life to others is no more than to own things...
to impress...
to win...
but never to live free...
therefore the keeper created this junkyard...
to escape reality...
n yet not daring enuf to seek true freedom...
therefore he seek refuge in this wasteland...
to take a rest from the reality he is not daring enuf to defy...
this is the story of the freedom junkyard...

love is like a rose

love is like a rose,
that bloody red feeling of love,
that mesmerising beauty you felt in love,
that wondrous scent that made you fell in love with,
that thorn that pierce through our heart,
so pain yet so addicting,
such a dangerous beauty,
craved by many mortals and divines alike,
sacrificing everything for just a taste of it,
a taste of such sweet poison,
for all the pain and labour,
in exchange for such mysterious flower,
that gives pain and pleasure,
heartfelt and heartbreak,
such bloody red feeling,
such mesmerising beauty,
such wondrous scent,
such painful thorn,
yet only becuase of such feelings,
that keeps us all wondering,
that curious mixture of emotions,
that makes us all in love with that bloody rose.

-JiE-

sad days, happy moments, great times...

it's been another long long weeks after my "emo" post...
haha...like they all say...u don't write a blog untill u feel emo...
but not today...
today's about alot of things...
n the 1st i wud like to address is the death of a legend...
Micheal Jackson...Rest in peace...
love your songs n will always do...
n i believe there wud never ever be another like MJ...
it's a sad sad day...
but the good news is my notebook is repaired...
i can now once again rule the world from my tiny room...
life is all great if any of u were thinking of how jie is lately...
still the same ol' jie u noe...
abit boring...less late nites...less games...i'm seriously getting old...
late nites makes me feel so tired...
plus for some reason i now have very limited late nite opportunity...
personal reasons...but daytime activity...is still very much A okay...
watched less movies...due to tighter budget...
but still manages to watch some that would make history....
terminator...not as great...but still not dissapointing...
good action...good actor...good director...huge budget...cool robots...
17 again...surprisingly good...
at 1st i thought it wud jz be another teen flick...
but it turns out that Zac is a really talented actor...
funny...romantic...meaningful...
must watch...no specially hot girls...but still worth a watch...
n than the all time favourite...
Transformers...
bigger action...more robots...richer story...n megan is still so hot...
if u miss this one...u'll live to regret that u've made a stupid mistake...4ever...dvd would never be the same...unless u have ur own home theater...with a 2 storey high silver screen...n an earth shaking surround sound system...if anyone of u have...plz give me a call...i wud love to be ur fren...
well, waiting for G.I Joe...it seem very promising...
oh yea before i forgot...angels and demons...not to say great...cuz it's easily forgotten when there are terminator n transformers competing...
but it's a good movie no doubt...
oh life is still so much so jie...but with some slight twist..
as i'm now controlled...n that is as much as i can say...
anyway...lets have a moment of silence to pay respect for the late MJ...
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n there u go...
time to sleep...good nite...good bye...good luck...
peace out...

the real life, the real jie

i m jie..nothing more...
i used to think i'm a dreamer...
it turns out that my dreams are empty...
it's words decorated beauifully...to make myself special...to be someone with a difference...
i'm nothing more than a real person like everyone...that masked myself behind some made up dream to be different, i'm no more than some regular guy...
but it is only now that i understand that i've been hiding behind my so called dream for too long...
too long...
i used to think that i understands freedom...i practice freedom...but i don't...
i have freedom...oh yes i do...almost as much as i can get...but i'm not free...
i thought that i can understand free will so good that i can actually don't care about some stuff...
but i can't...my minds r not free...i m filled with jealousy...haunted by self doubt...hungry for recognition...living in total lost n sadness...
as i now know that i'm not living free...i'm merely running free...like a mad man trying to escape the truth...living in dreams...finding happiness in lies created by myself...living high by stepping on other's mistake, which i eventually make them myself...how low can one get...?
i'm really sorry...
i've been living a lie...
a lie which i wanted it to be true...
i'm but a narrow minded person living in a lie to live higher n greater...which would fall...n crash...n i wud eventually lose everything...i'm awake n i'm god damn tired...
now i jz wan to be free...really free from those lies...free from negative thoughts n feelings...
too tired to go on telling lies to everything i've done to make myself better...
i now jz wan to be useful...n start to find myself a path which i always runs from...a goal to achieve..a dream to fulfill...
well...now i'm too tired to go on...good nite...hate me, scold me, laugh at me as u like...i'm sorry...

better than ever...

well, life can never be better i tell u all...
1st i have a fren with a family problem...in which i'm accused of being someone i'm not...seriously u dun wanna know what...u wun believe it anyway...
that cause quite an uproar here with one of my other fren, in which also being accused of being that kind of person he's not...
n some others with some kind of funny jokes...well, life ain't easy for my fren here...haha...but lately i think he's quite ok...did talked abit about stuff that happened...he's fine...
2nd of all i've spoiled my very own computer...early forensic states that it's the burn-up or breakdown of the motherboard...will send it to the HP centre for further investigation...but it sucks big time...now i'm resorting to internet cafe of my brothers computer...all my songs n files are gone...rest in peace...
n when things can't get any better...here comes the ipod...with the keypad malfunction...n here goes my daily jogging routine with my songs...n i'm sending it in to the factory too...they say bad things comes twice...n i got it 3 times...well, theres a saying that when things can't get any worst...good luck wud come...hopefully it's true...cuz i'm desparate for luck...

well...maybe i'm abit bad luck but i do stumble upon some good movies too...maybe one...it's marley n me...it's not that entertaining in the trailer...but as always, never trust the trailer...it turn out to be good...simple comedy...some reality...some happy stuff...some sad stuff...n one good movie...shud go for it...if u're looking for something fun n easy...n some tears for some ppl...

what's life without some bad luck..?bad luck seem to come quite often as they always do, cuz we dun really seem to remember good things that happened...taking things for granted is like what we do best...we're born with that talent...we jz have to keep on living...

bad stuff will go n good stuff will come...
Chao~~

life on the run...

everyone...!!!i've watched Dragonball...
don't watch it now!!!if u want to, watch with a student card...
it doesn't worth the 10bucks u'll b paying...trust me...
but it's not really such a bad movie...quite entertaining, quite funny...n the girls are hot...go watch it if u're out of movies to watch...
but if u wan to go for something good...maybe great...go for 7pounds...
i'm not gonna spoil anything here...go watch it urself...
will smith is always my hero...

i'm a little confuse lately, or shall i say frustrated...with alot fo things...
study, life n stuff...u know...stuff...haha...thinking of many things...
my mind is never quiet...even now i'm thinking...of something...of someone...ARGHHHH!!!!!!i hate this kind of feeling...i jz wan to be free...
but i've found a way to give me some peace...
even for a moment it feel so good that i wan to do it again...
of'cuz...it's not drugs...no drugs here in my blog...!!!got that...?!!!
running...i've been running again lately...too much thinking thats y...
everytime i run i feel so free...all i have in mind is to run n run n run n run...nothing else...n after i reach my goal/destination i can't feel anything but tired n some little aching feeling that makes me feel so alive...n all i can do is laugh...n everything seem so calm n peaceful...
but than again...the nex day everything came back...n i feel like running again...haha...i guess u jz can't run away from problems...haha...
oh well, tomorrow i off to find that moment of peace again...haha...

i know no one really reads my blog...but...i would like to ask if there anyone...interested in hiking/jogging...find me..maybe we can group some ppl n form some group or something that we can all do this together...i mean maybe u're looking for some incentives to do some exercise...n this may be a good thing...but...i guess kids nowadays like clubs, drinks, money, games n sex..more than anything haha...jkjk...

anyway...u know where to find me...here...
peace out..~~

Life...!~~~

i've been tagged..but i'm very sorry YC i'm jz too lazy...n u dun wan to know whats on my playlist...yall might think that i came from the 80's haha...
so plz try not to tag me, everyone...i'm a lazy time travelling freak...i love peace...haha...

i wan to see the world, i wan to feel the difference, i wan to taste the sweetness, i wan to share their sorrow n to experience their happiness...i wan to backpack around the world...!!!!
well often when i speak of enjoying life what comes into ppl's mind is money that wud be spent...thats stereotyping...!!!enjoying life is to cherish life, not to spend money...n often they wud consider those with a free spirit immature becuz they r not thinking of making big money, they r not thinking of being at the top of the corporation chart, they r not thinking of owning the world...all they think is to enjoy life as it is...n to share it with the world...n letting go n be free...often there ideas are considered impossible n stupid n of'cuz immature n a taboo...specially in a conservative society...but if those "matured" dude are matured enuf they shud have understand that life ain't complicated, life is nothing more than simple n free...but us humans are complicated, often obses with fame, wealth, power n desires...selfishly keeping everything to themselves, making money n money n money n money...owning everything they want...having everything...almost everything but the pure simplicity of life n freedom...they enjoyed luxury stuff but they don't see how it come to exist...they feel n taste the best in which is calculated n measured by money but the best things in life is everything around u its life itself...of'cuz living free isn't living rich...everyone can live rich but not every1 can live free...every1 can own everything but not every1 can share eveything...so tell me whos immature..?

haha...well i'm jz trying to whine my way through boredom...dun take it too seriously it's jz my point of view...anyway...damn tired rite now...chao..!!~~
good nite everyone...~~