In my blog, I stressed on living free, dreams, and other stuff like humanity or so, and many times when we speak of such things we're considered naive or maybe it's where i live, where dreams and living are heavily connected with wealth, even so as we move on into the future. Without wealth basically we're useless even with the vast knowledge or experiance we have and people just don't see individuals with dreams the right way, IF it is not about gaining wealth. I do try speak of my dream and thought of living free and stuff about dreams and the world and humanity, but often maybe always their comments are,"You still need money to do all those stuff that you want to do" or " You're too naive and when you want to grow up?". Perhaps yea, i do need all those money in the world to prove my point. If you're an adventuror you'de be considered as useless, unless somehow you become famous and rich than it's all different, and it's only different because now you have money.
Seriously i'm not anti money and stuff like that, i do love money and i mean a lot, what else could buy me what i want. But i just thought that if childrens are brought up with the idea of wealth is the only dream they should have, than that is the cause of many wars and fights and other grief and ignorance to the beauty of life and living, and the exploitation of nature and humanity to gain wealth. Because people don't care what business you're in they just want to know the figure you bank in, the more the better and capable person you are even when your business includes exploiting nature and humanity. And when we speak of those kind of people who damages the world, causes war and fights, naturally everyone would start to act all righteous and condemn those people, but seriously i think instead of pointing fingers at those people, we should all start by pointing to the one we see when we look into the mirror, because all those problems starts with a dream and greed for wealth and also the teaching from society the importance of wealth and money over any other stuff that comes to mind, because every conflict starts with greed for money.
One of the reason why there are less good and happy people in the world, and there are more stress in life, it's because of the way people are brought up these days. Back then, i mean way back then when knowledge are gained for good and to help people, now knowledge are gained for wealth. relationships are made for profitable reasons instead of purely from the heart, and everyone seems to have their own agenda and plot. Dreams should be something happy and good and noble, but now it all comes down only to gain wealth, with all those thoughts pouring in stressing on gaining wealth instead of living well and free and good and happy and stuff like that, that is why people in the modern world have more stress and are less happy , it is also the cause of many psycological disease and depression also because pharmaceutical company wanted to gain profit by selling drugs to cure what i think can be cured if the world move into the right direction. Yes money is important, and there are no arguements to that, but Dreams and Good and Humanity and Happiness are equally as important, children should not be taught that only money can bring them happiness, let them know how beautiful the world is, how life should be treasured and explore what the world has to offer and preserve instead of how to gain profit from it. People waste time going around analyse and find what causes depression and stress and other sad stuff going around, giving reasons and explanation about it, but everyone seem to shy away from the fact that the way people are taught and brought up right now is the cause of all those problems, and it's actually very easy to cure, just by changing peoples attitude and visions of what life should be. But sadly humans are humans, we tend to ignore the good things that makes you poorer, but it actually makes you a lot happier but everyone is too blinded by the thought that only money can make you happier, and how funny that is to see how ignorance man can be.
Yup, money can buy you the world, but it certainly can't buy you happiness. Just look at how happy the casino tycoon from Macau is right now. Ironically what makes you happy are making you sad right now, and the funny thing is people still don't realise that.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Humanity for cash
Just Finished watching "No Regrets" the last 2 episode, it brings a lot of thoughts to my mind, it's touching, it kinda makes me think or imagined how would i look back through my life 30, 50 years later in life. I might be a very rich old man or living poor waiting my time to come, but when i look back what would i see? is there any story worth telling? any experiance worth sharing? Or just looking back and say, "how i wish i did better when i had the chance." or "i could've made it but i din't." or "my life is just as plain and nothing is worth sharing or any adventure worth telling.". I fear life is nothing more than just repeating the same thing, we need adventures to make our life interesting, stories of how we survived through the war like when i hear about stories how my grandparents survive those harsh times, how life is as hard as we in this era could ever imagined, perhaps too hard for people today, and yet they survived. I wish i had my own story to tell, my own adventure to share, i might not be rich but at the very least i lived a rich life full of adventures and stories worth sharing and proud of. All but just a dream.
Living today isn't about having stories to tell, but materials to show off. It isn't about relationships but social networks. Living today is about living life to the expectations of others, instead of being true to ourself. Many claimed to be so, to me it's all hypocrissy, no one lived true enough to themself anymore, or perhaps material wealth is all that matters in the world today, being rich is basically second nature to everyone next to having to eat. I, myself is hypocritical, just as everyone else, i do things to project image to impress others, just as everyone else, and it all comes naturally, just as everyone else. I know and really wanted to live life, to enjoy every beautiful moments to experiance adventure life throws at me. I really wanted to. But "Life" just isn't allowing me to, because money seem to be slowly replacing faith and humanity. We see people that would do anything just for money, torturing innocent animals, killing, all those ugly things people would do just for those cold hard cash. People would do anything to be rich, everyone wants to be rich, and that scares me, life is now just about showing off a bunch of material goods, even gaining knowledge is just for the purpose of being rich. The sad thing is, people really envy those who have more money than those who have more wisdom. Today Humanity and Wisdom are jokes and fairy tales, Money and Material goods are reality. Long live Humanity!!
Living today isn't about having stories to tell, but materials to show off. It isn't about relationships but social networks. Living today is about living life to the expectations of others, instead of being true to ourself. Many claimed to be so, to me it's all hypocrissy, no one lived true enough to themself anymore, or perhaps material wealth is all that matters in the world today, being rich is basically second nature to everyone next to having to eat. I, myself is hypocritical, just as everyone else, i do things to project image to impress others, just as everyone else, and it all comes naturally, just as everyone else. I know and really wanted to live life, to enjoy every beautiful moments to experiance adventure life throws at me. I really wanted to. But "Life" just isn't allowing me to, because money seem to be slowly replacing faith and humanity. We see people that would do anything just for money, torturing innocent animals, killing, all those ugly things people would do just for those cold hard cash. People would do anything to be rich, everyone wants to be rich, and that scares me, life is now just about showing off a bunch of material goods, even gaining knowledge is just for the purpose of being rich. The sad thing is, people really envy those who have more money than those who have more wisdom. Today Humanity and Wisdom are jokes and fairy tales, Money and Material goods are reality. Long live Humanity!!
Monday, November 1, 2010
what everyone wants
Everyone wants to fly,
to go places where everything's fine,
to be where they belong,
to do anything they want,
to feel freedom.
Everyone wants,
but no one dare,
to reach out and grab,
to hold, to feel, to take,
everyone fears what they want most.
Everyone have wings,
that could take them anywhere they want,
to places they desired to be,
to do anything they want,
all everyone need is to spread their wings.
Everyone's wings have crippled,
too long trapped in a gildered cage,
lost in a jungle of greed and fear,
controled by rules made to control,
funny how everyone wants what they were born with.
to go places where everything's fine,
to be where they belong,
to do anything they want,
to feel freedom.
Everyone wants,
but no one dare,
to reach out and grab,
to hold, to feel, to take,
everyone fears what they want most.
Everyone have wings,
that could take them anywhere they want,
to places they desired to be,
to do anything they want,
all everyone need is to spread their wings.
Everyone's wings have crippled,
too long trapped in a gildered cage,
lost in a jungle of greed and fear,
controled by rules made to control,
funny how everyone wants what they were born with.
Friday, September 3, 2010
The existence of everything
Lately i found that the question of God's existence is a popular question. I'll start of with my point of view to all those questions about God.
Do God exist? a question which puzzled the minds of millions or billions or bascialy everyone on this planet. Yes or no, it'll still attract arguments from extremist from both sides because we can't prove either. It's also because both extremes are blind to other possibilities beside their belief so they won't be satisfied untill the other side said "sorry i'm wrong", the highly religious group will condemn the other group to hell and the atheist will bash the religious group to their own hell. Seriously if you keep asking question about one end the answers will never be found because no matter how you explain stuff there will be non-believers, there will be questions. And co-existence never came to the mind of those people.
Atheist said the universe starts with a big bang, the deist ask what created the big bang? The deist said God created the universe, the atheist ask who created God? it's a never ending circle of questions but either side can put out cold hard evidence. Seriously the best way to prove facts is by showing evidence instead of questioning theory. Well some even resorted to insulting the other side for stating their own opinion. I'm not trying to judge or being stereotypical but most often i find highly religious people react violently, if you believe in what you believe than there should not be violence specialy religious people, i don't recall any religion promoting violence and anger.
Even when we put aside atheism, there will still be arguments to which religion is the true religion. Seemingly the more religious one group of people are the more they blind themself to what the religion taught them, no religion in this world teaches you to react to non-believers violently or promoting insults to other religious group, none, if there is please do correct me and i'll stay away from you and your religion. When one group of religious people react violently, it shows that they fear of what they believe is false they fear of going to hell and losing their comfort of being exclusive, so they react violently and start insulting other religion and people or even start a fight or worst a war. Even if what you believe is true i don't see any reason why your God should send you to heaven, when a fight or war starts in your God's name then that is the biggest insult to your own religion, your own God, believing is one thing, learning from what your religion taught you is another thing, believes itself will only this far, practicing the teaching will take you higher or at least as a person, you're more respectable. Violence is never what a God or Gods wants from their believers. Sadly most wars in history starts more or less due to religious violence, i can assure you the ones who started the war will not end in good place.
The best way is to believe in what you believe, forgive those who does not believe in what you believe, understand that instead of finding ways to disapprove others why not find ways to prove that you're right, but never through violence or insults, because even if you are right but what you did was wrong so even with believes itself would not take you to where you want to be. There are reasons for everthing but not all reasons are understandable, when a war is started, both sides are evil no matter what is your cause.
I'm not here to prove or disapprove anything, because there are possibilities in everything and we don't have answers to everything. But the moment we insult someone or start a fight with someone on what they believe or what they disbelieve, we're starting a fight against what we believe in, because no religion in this world promote violence. Every war started in God's name is a war started against God.
Well, live free, be happy. Make love, not war :)
Do God exist? a question which puzzled the minds of millions or billions or bascialy everyone on this planet. Yes or no, it'll still attract arguments from extremist from both sides because we can't prove either. It's also because both extremes are blind to other possibilities beside their belief so they won't be satisfied untill the other side said "sorry i'm wrong", the highly religious group will condemn the other group to hell and the atheist will bash the religious group to their own hell. Seriously if you keep asking question about one end the answers will never be found because no matter how you explain stuff there will be non-believers, there will be questions. And co-existence never came to the mind of those people.
Atheist said the universe starts with a big bang, the deist ask what created the big bang? The deist said God created the universe, the atheist ask who created God? it's a never ending circle of questions but either side can put out cold hard evidence. Seriously the best way to prove facts is by showing evidence instead of questioning theory. Well some even resorted to insulting the other side for stating their own opinion. I'm not trying to judge or being stereotypical but most often i find highly religious people react violently, if you believe in what you believe than there should not be violence specialy religious people, i don't recall any religion promoting violence and anger.
Even when we put aside atheism, there will still be arguments to which religion is the true religion. Seemingly the more religious one group of people are the more they blind themself to what the religion taught them, no religion in this world teaches you to react to non-believers violently or promoting insults to other religious group, none, if there is please do correct me and i'll stay away from you and your religion. When one group of religious people react violently, it shows that they fear of what they believe is false they fear of going to hell and losing their comfort of being exclusive, so they react violently and start insulting other religion and people or even start a fight or worst a war. Even if what you believe is true i don't see any reason why your God should send you to heaven, when a fight or war starts in your God's name then that is the biggest insult to your own religion, your own God, believing is one thing, learning from what your religion taught you is another thing, believes itself will only this far, practicing the teaching will take you higher or at least as a person, you're more respectable. Violence is never what a God or Gods wants from their believers. Sadly most wars in history starts more or less due to religious violence, i can assure you the ones who started the war will not end in good place.
The best way is to believe in what you believe, forgive those who does not believe in what you believe, understand that instead of finding ways to disapprove others why not find ways to prove that you're right, but never through violence or insults, because even if you are right but what you did was wrong so even with believes itself would not take you to where you want to be. There are reasons for everthing but not all reasons are understandable, when a war is started, both sides are evil no matter what is your cause.
I'm not here to prove or disapprove anything, because there are possibilities in everything and we don't have answers to everything. But the moment we insult someone or start a fight with someone on what they believe or what they disbelieve, we're starting a fight against what we believe in, because no religion in this world promote violence. Every war started in God's name is a war started against God.
Well, live free, be happy. Make love, not war :)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
31st of August, independence day no more.
It's 31st of August, everything seem so normal, as though nothing had happened before, as though it's a day when we all need not go to work, and the only joy from this day is that everyone doesn't need to work and that's about it. Independence day means nothing more than a regular holiday, if that is so, do we still need to mark this day as important? or have we forgotten that it's independence day?
I remember waking up in the morning and watch the march and parade for the celebration of independence day through tv, back then it meant a lot more than it does today, people do not really care anymore. Everyone seem to have given up hope for this country, the future of this country now in the hands of some incompetent few, corrupted, greedy, an insatiable desire for money, now the main job of the government of this country is to suck this country dry of any financial resource that was left since independence day, perhaps we should mark that day as the day the British had forsaken us. Each year our country seem to fall deeper and deeper into chaos, we see progress in all the ASEAN countries but not ours, every time we look at our growth it breaks our heart to know that we're losing out on everything and as though we're the only one that goes backwards.
The truth is there is no perfect government in this world, only better ones, corruption is everywhere, but, others still have a sense of patriotism toward their country and try their best to also move the country forward. To be frank, I'm disappointed not in the level of corruption of our government but the stupidity of our government, if you only take, someday it'll eventually end. For example a farm, if a farmer is stupid enough to take all the fruits at one time even the green ones and didn't even bother to take care of the trees eventually the trees will die the farm will end and there would be nothing left and the farmer will be laughed at by the other farmer, Instead if the farmer take lesser fruits and leave the green ones to grow, and put some effort into the farm than it'll become a source that will never end. It's sad to know that our future here is in the hands of not only greedy, but also stupid people, the best combo for a country to crumble.
I'm seriously proud to be a Malaysian, and i love Malaysia, but i seriously despise the current ruling party not only for it's corruption, but also it's level of stupidity. Also despite the fact that the government is on a 1 Malaysia project, but it's also their people that has been making racist remarks. Just when everything seem fine there will always be someone that will ruin everything. A word of advice for the government, if you have people that will sabotage your effort of making a better world, cut of the weakest link before it drags you down along with them, oppressing the people will only take you this far, gaining the support of the people will take you to a higher place.
I remember waking up in the morning and watch the march and parade for the celebration of independence day through tv, back then it meant a lot more than it does today, people do not really care anymore. Everyone seem to have given up hope for this country, the future of this country now in the hands of some incompetent few, corrupted, greedy, an insatiable desire for money, now the main job of the government of this country is to suck this country dry of any financial resource that was left since independence day, perhaps we should mark that day as the day the British had forsaken us. Each year our country seem to fall deeper and deeper into chaos, we see progress in all the ASEAN countries but not ours, every time we look at our growth it breaks our heart to know that we're losing out on everything and as though we're the only one that goes backwards.
The truth is there is no perfect government in this world, only better ones, corruption is everywhere, but, others still have a sense of patriotism toward their country and try their best to also move the country forward. To be frank, I'm disappointed not in the level of corruption of our government but the stupidity of our government, if you only take, someday it'll eventually end. For example a farm, if a farmer is stupid enough to take all the fruits at one time even the green ones and didn't even bother to take care of the trees eventually the trees will die the farm will end and there would be nothing left and the farmer will be laughed at by the other farmer, Instead if the farmer take lesser fruits and leave the green ones to grow, and put some effort into the farm than it'll become a source that will never end. It's sad to know that our future here is in the hands of not only greedy, but also stupid people, the best combo for a country to crumble.
I'm seriously proud to be a Malaysian, and i love Malaysia, but i seriously despise the current ruling party not only for it's corruption, but also it's level of stupidity. Also despite the fact that the government is on a 1 Malaysia project, but it's also their people that has been making racist remarks. Just when everything seem fine there will always be someone that will ruin everything. A word of advice for the government, if you have people that will sabotage your effort of making a better world, cut of the weakest link before it drags you down along with them, oppressing the people will only take you this far, gaining the support of the people will take you to a higher place.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
any lower you have to dig a hole
Lately, my heart feels like it's so heavy it's popping out anytime soon. There's so much negative energy around me i feel like I'm going crazy, everything seem so bleak and blur that never would there be anything good happening this time around, as though I'm stuck in a black hole of negative energy and I'm drowning in bad luck. Life can never be worst that this ever, well that's what i thought, and i sure hope that i thought wrong about it.
I was watching Glee, good show and i think everyone should watch it, at the very least it's something fun to watch and they have songs that would bring up your spirit when you're feeling low, for now i guess nothing can get any lower, failing an exam, a little relationship bumps, household arguments, financial headache, and a very very sadly low self esteem, it would help if i know of someone that is now living an even a suckier life cause it seriously helps, i was just kidding, it's the negative energy talking. In the show that i was talking about they were singing "holding on" by Avril Lavign, and their version was better i think, well at least for that little moment i was lifted wasn't that sad, just keep holding on, and we'll make it through, and i hope my life will make it through, i seriously do, and i know it will.
It's obviously that I'm having a tough time and feeling seriously low right now so pardon my negativity but hey what's better that to know that there are still even lower life form out there, sorry, another negative energy talk. I would like to post the glee song on my page but sadly i couldn't find any of the video on youtube except for the karaoke version which only has backing singing in the whole damn video, you know you're bad luck when you can't even find a damn song in youtube, seriously, millions of people uploading video no glee song that i wanted? seriously?
Peace out and good luck to me.
I was watching Glee, good show and i think everyone should watch it, at the very least it's something fun to watch and they have songs that would bring up your spirit when you're feeling low, for now i guess nothing can get any lower, failing an exam, a little relationship bumps, household arguments, financial headache, and a very very sadly low self esteem, it would help if i know of someone that is now living an even a suckier life cause it seriously helps, i was just kidding, it's the negative energy talking. In the show that i was talking about they were singing "holding on" by Avril Lavign, and their version was better i think, well at least for that little moment i was lifted wasn't that sad, just keep holding on, and we'll make it through, and i hope my life will make it through, i seriously do, and i know it will.
It's obviously that I'm having a tough time and feeling seriously low right now so pardon my negativity but hey what's better that to know that there are still even lower life form out there, sorry, another negative energy talk. I would like to post the glee song on my page but sadly i couldn't find any of the video on youtube except for the karaoke version which only has backing singing in the whole damn video, you know you're bad luck when you can't even find a damn song in youtube, seriously, millions of people uploading video no glee song that i wanted? seriously?
Peace out and good luck to me.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
how long was i asleep and dreaming?
Today my world seem to end right after i click the view button at the exam results website, i failed, there was no excuse as to why i failed, it's all because i was not taking things seriously, and i admit i didn't even try hard enough to make things right, to study as hard as i should, deep down somehow i knew this is what i deserve, no one to blame but myself.
The whole day i was with my friend watching movie and all but i kept having this feeling that i was so wrong, that how would i face my dad and telling him i failed again, yes again, and your son is a big fucking failure, that fails everything in life. I always thought "hey I'm not that bad, thing would always pull through." seems like i was lying to myself all the time, i ain't that great, i can't even pass a fucking exam. I suck as what i am and i suck at what i am doing, i ain't great at anything 'cept for denying facts about myself that i know about myself and think that I'm good at what I'm doing when i suck big time at everything I'm doing, I SUCK!!!
And I'm a hypocrite myself, i tell people about future, but when it comes to myself i can't even see what's ten steps ahead, if i can't even study hard enough what gives me the right to criticize what people are doing? Next time i feel like saying something bad about anyone i really should start by looking into the mirror. I whine about everything bad going on and do nothing to fix anything, this is bad that is bad, everything is bad the world is bad, and i did nothing but whine about everything. I seriously need rehabilitation, i need help, i need support, all that i don't really deserve.
I always have a reason to everything, i always thought that i should deserve better, i always thought that i can pull everything together, i always thought that i could do anything as long as i wanted to, obviously i thought wrong and it's all a fucking lie. I am nothing more but an empty tin can that make noise so much about everything when i don't even have proof to back me up.
Enough of all the self blaming and whining, what i really need now is to change my useless attitude, i need to be more serious about life and everything i do, i need a chance, i need a change, the old me has proven to be wrong, and I've wasted 22 years to realize I'm wrong. If there's anyone reading, laughing right now, it's ok i deserve all the insult, but i also beg forgiveness for what i did wrong and a chance to change, and support i can get to change, I'm useless by myself.
Sorry, truly i vow to change.
The whole day i was with my friend watching movie and all but i kept having this feeling that i was so wrong, that how would i face my dad and telling him i failed again, yes again, and your son is a big fucking failure, that fails everything in life. I always thought "hey I'm not that bad, thing would always pull through." seems like i was lying to myself all the time, i ain't that great, i can't even pass a fucking exam. I suck as what i am and i suck at what i am doing, i ain't great at anything 'cept for denying facts about myself that i know about myself and think that I'm good at what I'm doing when i suck big time at everything I'm doing, I SUCK!!!
And I'm a hypocrite myself, i tell people about future, but when it comes to myself i can't even see what's ten steps ahead, if i can't even study hard enough what gives me the right to criticize what people are doing? Next time i feel like saying something bad about anyone i really should start by looking into the mirror. I whine about everything bad going on and do nothing to fix anything, this is bad that is bad, everything is bad the world is bad, and i did nothing but whine about everything. I seriously need rehabilitation, i need help, i need support, all that i don't really deserve.
I always have a reason to everything, i always thought that i should deserve better, i always thought that i can pull everything together, i always thought that i could do anything as long as i wanted to, obviously i thought wrong and it's all a fucking lie. I am nothing more but an empty tin can that make noise so much about everything when i don't even have proof to back me up.
Enough of all the self blaming and whining, what i really need now is to change my useless attitude, i need to be more serious about life and everything i do, i need a chance, i need a change, the old me has proven to be wrong, and I've wasted 22 years to realize I'm wrong. If there's anyone reading, laughing right now, it's ok i deserve all the insult, but i also beg forgiveness for what i did wrong and a chance to change, and support i can get to change, I'm useless by myself.
Sorry, truly i vow to change.
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