sleeping sane...

jz came back from an apartment stay...
with frens from Borders...
quite a stay...can't really say it's the best...
but i guess it wasn't that bad...
the sea is as calm n as beautiful like always...
the wave moves me...with its beautiful melody...
for a moment there i feel free sitting alone by the sea...
looking at the dark horizon wondering whats beyond...
like life it's too far yet beautiful...
full of uncertainty...that makes it beautiful...

i guess i'm lost again...
heart full of doubt, full of envy, full of anger...
yet there is still this bit of content, this bit of calm, this bit of sense...
hopefully this bit of sanity can hold on...
ain't wan to do something i'll regret...
i still wan to be me...
i still wan to be free...
yet all those insanity makes me feel chained...
i wan to sleep...
close my eyes n let everything go...
when i wake up i'm all new...
when i wake up everythings done...
tired...
having everything means nothing without having to be free...
free from feelings...
i guess no one is free...
i guess no one can be free...
all i wan is to sleep...
feel free when i'm asleep...