In my blog, I stressed on living free, dreams, and other stuff like humanity or so, and many times when we speak of such things we're considered naive or maybe it's where i live, where dreams and living are heavily connected with wealth, even so as we move on into the future. Without wealth basically we're useless even with the vast knowledge or experiance we have and people just don't see individuals with dreams the right way, IF it is not about gaining wealth. I do try speak of my dream and thought of living free and stuff about dreams and the world and humanity, but often maybe always their comments are,"You still need money to do all those stuff that you want to do" or " You're too naive and when you want to grow up?". Perhaps yea, i do need all those money in the world to prove my point. If you're an adventuror you'de be considered as useless, unless somehow you become famous and rich than it's all different, and it's only different because now you have money.
Seriously i'm not anti money and stuff like that, i do love money and i mean a lot, what else could buy me what i want. But i just thought that if childrens are brought up with the idea of wealth is the only dream they should have, than that is the cause of many wars and fights and other grief and ignorance to the beauty of life and living, and the exploitation of nature and humanity to gain wealth. Because people don't care what business you're in they just want to know the figure you bank in, the more the better and capable person you are even when your business includes exploiting nature and humanity. And when we speak of those kind of people who damages the world, causes war and fights, naturally everyone would start to act all righteous and condemn those people, but seriously i think instead of pointing fingers at those people, we should all start by pointing to the one we see when we look into the mirror, because all those problems starts with a dream and greed for wealth and also the teaching from society the importance of wealth and money over any other stuff that comes to mind, because every conflict starts with greed for money.
One of the reason why there are less good and happy people in the world, and there are more stress in life, it's because of the way people are brought up these days. Back then, i mean way back then when knowledge are gained for good and to help people, now knowledge are gained for wealth. relationships are made for profitable reasons instead of purely from the heart, and everyone seems to have their own agenda and plot. Dreams should be something happy and good and noble, but now it all comes down only to gain wealth, with all those thoughts pouring in stressing on gaining wealth instead of living well and free and good and happy and stuff like that, that is why people in the modern world have more stress and are less happy , it is also the cause of many psycological disease and depression also because pharmaceutical company wanted to gain profit by selling drugs to cure what i think can be cured if the world move into the right direction. Yes money is important, and there are no arguements to that, but Dreams and Good and Humanity and Happiness are equally as important, children should not be taught that only money can bring them happiness, let them know how beautiful the world is, how life should be treasured and explore what the world has to offer and preserve instead of how to gain profit from it. People waste time going around analyse and find what causes depression and stress and other sad stuff going around, giving reasons and explanation about it, but everyone seem to shy away from the fact that the way people are taught and brought up right now is the cause of all those problems, and it's actually very easy to cure, just by changing peoples attitude and visions of what life should be. But sadly humans are humans, we tend to ignore the good things that makes you poorer, but it actually makes you a lot happier but everyone is too blinded by the thought that only money can make you happier, and how funny that is to see how ignorance man can be.
Yup, money can buy you the world, but it certainly can't buy you happiness. Just look at how happy the casino tycoon from Macau is right now. Ironically what makes you happy are making you sad right now, and the funny thing is people still don't realise that.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Humanity for cash
Just Finished watching "No Regrets" the last 2 episode, it brings a lot of thoughts to my mind, it's touching, it kinda makes me think or imagined how would i look back through my life 30, 50 years later in life. I might be a very rich old man or living poor waiting my time to come, but when i look back what would i see? is there any story worth telling? any experiance worth sharing? Or just looking back and say, "how i wish i did better when i had the chance." or "i could've made it but i din't." or "my life is just as plain and nothing is worth sharing or any adventure worth telling.". I fear life is nothing more than just repeating the same thing, we need adventures to make our life interesting, stories of how we survived through the war like when i hear about stories how my grandparents survive those harsh times, how life is as hard as we in this era could ever imagined, perhaps too hard for people today, and yet they survived. I wish i had my own story to tell, my own adventure to share, i might not be rich but at the very least i lived a rich life full of adventures and stories worth sharing and proud of. All but just a dream.
Living today isn't about having stories to tell, but materials to show off. It isn't about relationships but social networks. Living today is about living life to the expectations of others, instead of being true to ourself. Many claimed to be so, to me it's all hypocrissy, no one lived true enough to themself anymore, or perhaps material wealth is all that matters in the world today, being rich is basically second nature to everyone next to having to eat. I, myself is hypocritical, just as everyone else, i do things to project image to impress others, just as everyone else, and it all comes naturally, just as everyone else. I know and really wanted to live life, to enjoy every beautiful moments to experiance adventure life throws at me. I really wanted to. But "Life" just isn't allowing me to, because money seem to be slowly replacing faith and humanity. We see people that would do anything just for money, torturing innocent animals, killing, all those ugly things people would do just for those cold hard cash. People would do anything to be rich, everyone wants to be rich, and that scares me, life is now just about showing off a bunch of material goods, even gaining knowledge is just for the purpose of being rich. The sad thing is, people really envy those who have more money than those who have more wisdom. Today Humanity and Wisdom are jokes and fairy tales, Money and Material goods are reality. Long live Humanity!!
Living today isn't about having stories to tell, but materials to show off. It isn't about relationships but social networks. Living today is about living life to the expectations of others, instead of being true to ourself. Many claimed to be so, to me it's all hypocrissy, no one lived true enough to themself anymore, or perhaps material wealth is all that matters in the world today, being rich is basically second nature to everyone next to having to eat. I, myself is hypocritical, just as everyone else, i do things to project image to impress others, just as everyone else, and it all comes naturally, just as everyone else. I know and really wanted to live life, to enjoy every beautiful moments to experiance adventure life throws at me. I really wanted to. But "Life" just isn't allowing me to, because money seem to be slowly replacing faith and humanity. We see people that would do anything just for money, torturing innocent animals, killing, all those ugly things people would do just for those cold hard cash. People would do anything to be rich, everyone wants to be rich, and that scares me, life is now just about showing off a bunch of material goods, even gaining knowledge is just for the purpose of being rich. The sad thing is, people really envy those who have more money than those who have more wisdom. Today Humanity and Wisdom are jokes and fairy tales, Money and Material goods are reality. Long live Humanity!!
Monday, November 1, 2010
what everyone wants
Everyone wants to fly,
to go places where everything's fine,
to be where they belong,
to do anything they want,
to feel freedom.
Everyone wants,
but no one dare,
to reach out and grab,
to hold, to feel, to take,
everyone fears what they want most.
Everyone have wings,
that could take them anywhere they want,
to places they desired to be,
to do anything they want,
all everyone need is to spread their wings.
Everyone's wings have crippled,
too long trapped in a gildered cage,
lost in a jungle of greed and fear,
controled by rules made to control,
funny how everyone wants what they were born with.
to go places where everything's fine,
to be where they belong,
to do anything they want,
to feel freedom.
Everyone wants,
but no one dare,
to reach out and grab,
to hold, to feel, to take,
everyone fears what they want most.
Everyone have wings,
that could take them anywhere they want,
to places they desired to be,
to do anything they want,
all everyone need is to spread their wings.
Everyone's wings have crippled,
too long trapped in a gildered cage,
lost in a jungle of greed and fear,
controled by rules made to control,
funny how everyone wants what they were born with.
Friday, September 3, 2010
The existence of everything
Lately i found that the question of God's existence is a popular question. I'll start of with my point of view to all those questions about God.
Do God exist? a question which puzzled the minds of millions or billions or bascialy everyone on this planet. Yes or no, it'll still attract arguments from extremist from both sides because we can't prove either. It's also because both extremes are blind to other possibilities beside their belief so they won't be satisfied untill the other side said "sorry i'm wrong", the highly religious group will condemn the other group to hell and the atheist will bash the religious group to their own hell. Seriously if you keep asking question about one end the answers will never be found because no matter how you explain stuff there will be non-believers, there will be questions. And co-existence never came to the mind of those people.
Atheist said the universe starts with a big bang, the deist ask what created the big bang? The deist said God created the universe, the atheist ask who created God? it's a never ending circle of questions but either side can put out cold hard evidence. Seriously the best way to prove facts is by showing evidence instead of questioning theory. Well some even resorted to insulting the other side for stating their own opinion. I'm not trying to judge or being stereotypical but most often i find highly religious people react violently, if you believe in what you believe than there should not be violence specialy religious people, i don't recall any religion promoting violence and anger.
Even when we put aside atheism, there will still be arguments to which religion is the true religion. Seemingly the more religious one group of people are the more they blind themself to what the religion taught them, no religion in this world teaches you to react to non-believers violently or promoting insults to other religious group, none, if there is please do correct me and i'll stay away from you and your religion. When one group of religious people react violently, it shows that they fear of what they believe is false they fear of going to hell and losing their comfort of being exclusive, so they react violently and start insulting other religion and people or even start a fight or worst a war. Even if what you believe is true i don't see any reason why your God should send you to heaven, when a fight or war starts in your God's name then that is the biggest insult to your own religion, your own God, believing is one thing, learning from what your religion taught you is another thing, believes itself will only this far, practicing the teaching will take you higher or at least as a person, you're more respectable. Violence is never what a God or Gods wants from their believers. Sadly most wars in history starts more or less due to religious violence, i can assure you the ones who started the war will not end in good place.
The best way is to believe in what you believe, forgive those who does not believe in what you believe, understand that instead of finding ways to disapprove others why not find ways to prove that you're right, but never through violence or insults, because even if you are right but what you did was wrong so even with believes itself would not take you to where you want to be. There are reasons for everthing but not all reasons are understandable, when a war is started, both sides are evil no matter what is your cause.
I'm not here to prove or disapprove anything, because there are possibilities in everything and we don't have answers to everything. But the moment we insult someone or start a fight with someone on what they believe or what they disbelieve, we're starting a fight against what we believe in, because no religion in this world promote violence. Every war started in God's name is a war started against God.
Well, live free, be happy. Make love, not war :)
Do God exist? a question which puzzled the minds of millions or billions or bascialy everyone on this planet. Yes or no, it'll still attract arguments from extremist from both sides because we can't prove either. It's also because both extremes are blind to other possibilities beside their belief so they won't be satisfied untill the other side said "sorry i'm wrong", the highly religious group will condemn the other group to hell and the atheist will bash the religious group to their own hell. Seriously if you keep asking question about one end the answers will never be found because no matter how you explain stuff there will be non-believers, there will be questions. And co-existence never came to the mind of those people.
Atheist said the universe starts with a big bang, the deist ask what created the big bang? The deist said God created the universe, the atheist ask who created God? it's a never ending circle of questions but either side can put out cold hard evidence. Seriously the best way to prove facts is by showing evidence instead of questioning theory. Well some even resorted to insulting the other side for stating their own opinion. I'm not trying to judge or being stereotypical but most often i find highly religious people react violently, if you believe in what you believe than there should not be violence specialy religious people, i don't recall any religion promoting violence and anger.
Even when we put aside atheism, there will still be arguments to which religion is the true religion. Seemingly the more religious one group of people are the more they blind themself to what the religion taught them, no religion in this world teaches you to react to non-believers violently or promoting insults to other religious group, none, if there is please do correct me and i'll stay away from you and your religion. When one group of religious people react violently, it shows that they fear of what they believe is false they fear of going to hell and losing their comfort of being exclusive, so they react violently and start insulting other religion and people or even start a fight or worst a war. Even if what you believe is true i don't see any reason why your God should send you to heaven, when a fight or war starts in your God's name then that is the biggest insult to your own religion, your own God, believing is one thing, learning from what your religion taught you is another thing, believes itself will only this far, practicing the teaching will take you higher or at least as a person, you're more respectable. Violence is never what a God or Gods wants from their believers. Sadly most wars in history starts more or less due to religious violence, i can assure you the ones who started the war will not end in good place.
The best way is to believe in what you believe, forgive those who does not believe in what you believe, understand that instead of finding ways to disapprove others why not find ways to prove that you're right, but never through violence or insults, because even if you are right but what you did was wrong so even with believes itself would not take you to where you want to be. There are reasons for everthing but not all reasons are understandable, when a war is started, both sides are evil no matter what is your cause.
I'm not here to prove or disapprove anything, because there are possibilities in everything and we don't have answers to everything. But the moment we insult someone or start a fight with someone on what they believe or what they disbelieve, we're starting a fight against what we believe in, because no religion in this world promote violence. Every war started in God's name is a war started against God.
Well, live free, be happy. Make love, not war :)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
31st of August, independence day no more.
It's 31st of August, everything seem so normal, as though nothing had happened before, as though it's a day when we all need not go to work, and the only joy from this day is that everyone doesn't need to work and that's about it. Independence day means nothing more than a regular holiday, if that is so, do we still need to mark this day as important? or have we forgotten that it's independence day?
I remember waking up in the morning and watch the march and parade for the celebration of independence day through tv, back then it meant a lot more than it does today, people do not really care anymore. Everyone seem to have given up hope for this country, the future of this country now in the hands of some incompetent few, corrupted, greedy, an insatiable desire for money, now the main job of the government of this country is to suck this country dry of any financial resource that was left since independence day, perhaps we should mark that day as the day the British had forsaken us. Each year our country seem to fall deeper and deeper into chaos, we see progress in all the ASEAN countries but not ours, every time we look at our growth it breaks our heart to know that we're losing out on everything and as though we're the only one that goes backwards.
The truth is there is no perfect government in this world, only better ones, corruption is everywhere, but, others still have a sense of patriotism toward their country and try their best to also move the country forward. To be frank, I'm disappointed not in the level of corruption of our government but the stupidity of our government, if you only take, someday it'll eventually end. For example a farm, if a farmer is stupid enough to take all the fruits at one time even the green ones and didn't even bother to take care of the trees eventually the trees will die the farm will end and there would be nothing left and the farmer will be laughed at by the other farmer, Instead if the farmer take lesser fruits and leave the green ones to grow, and put some effort into the farm than it'll become a source that will never end. It's sad to know that our future here is in the hands of not only greedy, but also stupid people, the best combo for a country to crumble.
I'm seriously proud to be a Malaysian, and i love Malaysia, but i seriously despise the current ruling party not only for it's corruption, but also it's level of stupidity. Also despite the fact that the government is on a 1 Malaysia project, but it's also their people that has been making racist remarks. Just when everything seem fine there will always be someone that will ruin everything. A word of advice for the government, if you have people that will sabotage your effort of making a better world, cut of the weakest link before it drags you down along with them, oppressing the people will only take you this far, gaining the support of the people will take you to a higher place.
I remember waking up in the morning and watch the march and parade for the celebration of independence day through tv, back then it meant a lot more than it does today, people do not really care anymore. Everyone seem to have given up hope for this country, the future of this country now in the hands of some incompetent few, corrupted, greedy, an insatiable desire for money, now the main job of the government of this country is to suck this country dry of any financial resource that was left since independence day, perhaps we should mark that day as the day the British had forsaken us. Each year our country seem to fall deeper and deeper into chaos, we see progress in all the ASEAN countries but not ours, every time we look at our growth it breaks our heart to know that we're losing out on everything and as though we're the only one that goes backwards.
The truth is there is no perfect government in this world, only better ones, corruption is everywhere, but, others still have a sense of patriotism toward their country and try their best to also move the country forward. To be frank, I'm disappointed not in the level of corruption of our government but the stupidity of our government, if you only take, someday it'll eventually end. For example a farm, if a farmer is stupid enough to take all the fruits at one time even the green ones and didn't even bother to take care of the trees eventually the trees will die the farm will end and there would be nothing left and the farmer will be laughed at by the other farmer, Instead if the farmer take lesser fruits and leave the green ones to grow, and put some effort into the farm than it'll become a source that will never end. It's sad to know that our future here is in the hands of not only greedy, but also stupid people, the best combo for a country to crumble.
I'm seriously proud to be a Malaysian, and i love Malaysia, but i seriously despise the current ruling party not only for it's corruption, but also it's level of stupidity. Also despite the fact that the government is on a 1 Malaysia project, but it's also their people that has been making racist remarks. Just when everything seem fine there will always be someone that will ruin everything. A word of advice for the government, if you have people that will sabotage your effort of making a better world, cut of the weakest link before it drags you down along with them, oppressing the people will only take you this far, gaining the support of the people will take you to a higher place.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
any lower you have to dig a hole
Lately, my heart feels like it's so heavy it's popping out anytime soon. There's so much negative energy around me i feel like I'm going crazy, everything seem so bleak and blur that never would there be anything good happening this time around, as though I'm stuck in a black hole of negative energy and I'm drowning in bad luck. Life can never be worst that this ever, well that's what i thought, and i sure hope that i thought wrong about it.
I was watching Glee, good show and i think everyone should watch it, at the very least it's something fun to watch and they have songs that would bring up your spirit when you're feeling low, for now i guess nothing can get any lower, failing an exam, a little relationship bumps, household arguments, financial headache, and a very very sadly low self esteem, it would help if i know of someone that is now living an even a suckier life cause it seriously helps, i was just kidding, it's the negative energy talking. In the show that i was talking about they were singing "holding on" by Avril Lavign, and their version was better i think, well at least for that little moment i was lifted wasn't that sad, just keep holding on, and we'll make it through, and i hope my life will make it through, i seriously do, and i know it will.
It's obviously that I'm having a tough time and feeling seriously low right now so pardon my negativity but hey what's better that to know that there are still even lower life form out there, sorry, another negative energy talk. I would like to post the glee song on my page but sadly i couldn't find any of the video on youtube except for the karaoke version which only has backing singing in the whole damn video, you know you're bad luck when you can't even find a damn song in youtube, seriously, millions of people uploading video no glee song that i wanted? seriously?
Peace out and good luck to me.
I was watching Glee, good show and i think everyone should watch it, at the very least it's something fun to watch and they have songs that would bring up your spirit when you're feeling low, for now i guess nothing can get any lower, failing an exam, a little relationship bumps, household arguments, financial headache, and a very very sadly low self esteem, it would help if i know of someone that is now living an even a suckier life cause it seriously helps, i was just kidding, it's the negative energy talking. In the show that i was talking about they were singing "holding on" by Avril Lavign, and their version was better i think, well at least for that little moment i was lifted wasn't that sad, just keep holding on, and we'll make it through, and i hope my life will make it through, i seriously do, and i know it will.
It's obviously that I'm having a tough time and feeling seriously low right now so pardon my negativity but hey what's better that to know that there are still even lower life form out there, sorry, another negative energy talk. I would like to post the glee song on my page but sadly i couldn't find any of the video on youtube except for the karaoke version which only has backing singing in the whole damn video, you know you're bad luck when you can't even find a damn song in youtube, seriously, millions of people uploading video no glee song that i wanted? seriously?
Peace out and good luck to me.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
how long was i asleep and dreaming?
Today my world seem to end right after i click the view button at the exam results website, i failed, there was no excuse as to why i failed, it's all because i was not taking things seriously, and i admit i didn't even try hard enough to make things right, to study as hard as i should, deep down somehow i knew this is what i deserve, no one to blame but myself.
The whole day i was with my friend watching movie and all but i kept having this feeling that i was so wrong, that how would i face my dad and telling him i failed again, yes again, and your son is a big fucking failure, that fails everything in life. I always thought "hey I'm not that bad, thing would always pull through." seems like i was lying to myself all the time, i ain't that great, i can't even pass a fucking exam. I suck as what i am and i suck at what i am doing, i ain't great at anything 'cept for denying facts about myself that i know about myself and think that I'm good at what I'm doing when i suck big time at everything I'm doing, I SUCK!!!
And I'm a hypocrite myself, i tell people about future, but when it comes to myself i can't even see what's ten steps ahead, if i can't even study hard enough what gives me the right to criticize what people are doing? Next time i feel like saying something bad about anyone i really should start by looking into the mirror. I whine about everything bad going on and do nothing to fix anything, this is bad that is bad, everything is bad the world is bad, and i did nothing but whine about everything. I seriously need rehabilitation, i need help, i need support, all that i don't really deserve.
I always have a reason to everything, i always thought that i should deserve better, i always thought that i can pull everything together, i always thought that i could do anything as long as i wanted to, obviously i thought wrong and it's all a fucking lie. I am nothing more but an empty tin can that make noise so much about everything when i don't even have proof to back me up.
Enough of all the self blaming and whining, what i really need now is to change my useless attitude, i need to be more serious about life and everything i do, i need a chance, i need a change, the old me has proven to be wrong, and I've wasted 22 years to realize I'm wrong. If there's anyone reading, laughing right now, it's ok i deserve all the insult, but i also beg forgiveness for what i did wrong and a chance to change, and support i can get to change, I'm useless by myself.
Sorry, truly i vow to change.
The whole day i was with my friend watching movie and all but i kept having this feeling that i was so wrong, that how would i face my dad and telling him i failed again, yes again, and your son is a big fucking failure, that fails everything in life. I always thought "hey I'm not that bad, thing would always pull through." seems like i was lying to myself all the time, i ain't that great, i can't even pass a fucking exam. I suck as what i am and i suck at what i am doing, i ain't great at anything 'cept for denying facts about myself that i know about myself and think that I'm good at what I'm doing when i suck big time at everything I'm doing, I SUCK!!!
And I'm a hypocrite myself, i tell people about future, but when it comes to myself i can't even see what's ten steps ahead, if i can't even study hard enough what gives me the right to criticize what people are doing? Next time i feel like saying something bad about anyone i really should start by looking into the mirror. I whine about everything bad going on and do nothing to fix anything, this is bad that is bad, everything is bad the world is bad, and i did nothing but whine about everything. I seriously need rehabilitation, i need help, i need support, all that i don't really deserve.
I always have a reason to everything, i always thought that i should deserve better, i always thought that i can pull everything together, i always thought that i could do anything as long as i wanted to, obviously i thought wrong and it's all a fucking lie. I am nothing more but an empty tin can that make noise so much about everything when i don't even have proof to back me up.
Enough of all the self blaming and whining, what i really need now is to change my useless attitude, i need to be more serious about life and everything i do, i need a chance, i need a change, the old me has proven to be wrong, and I've wasted 22 years to realize I'm wrong. If there's anyone reading, laughing right now, it's ok i deserve all the insult, but i also beg forgiveness for what i did wrong and a chance to change, and support i can get to change, I'm useless by myself.
Sorry, truly i vow to change.
Friday, August 20, 2010
surviving a nightmare
I am so into survivor horror game lately, specially when it's zombies. Shooting them, burst their heads off, punch a hole at the abs, of all the thrill of surviving through the whole nightmare. not only games, manga, movie, anything. I'm not fascinated with the dead or sick stuff, sometimes i would ask myself what would i do in a zombie outbreak? with my skills and who i am, how far would i go?would i become a hero like what i did in the game or read in mangas or watched in movies, or i'm jz another jerk that would selfishly hide all the resources for myself and unleash the beast that is in me doing evil in times of trouble like what we also see in those kind of stories?
But what i really realized was that zombies and surviving fascinates me so much is because it's whats inside of me. Don't get me wrong but i'm trying to survive in this world and every moment passed freaks me out, time seem to flow so fast i can't even take a grasp of what it's like the last moment or even any happy moments, every moment is a struggle to find my existence, every moment i try to find my cause, my goal, my future and a good rest too is hard to find my heart swarms with ideas, ideals, logic, sense, emotions, fear, everyday i have to find something to do, to distract me from those fear, those void that i felt every single time when i'm alone, even sometimes with everything going on i feel lonely, i struggle to shake those feeling off, but sometimes even with all those around me i still can't run from it, sometimes with everyone around me i feel like i'm trying to survive in a zombie outbreak, and every zombie is me, every zombie i shot is every fear i'm trying to kill in me, every bit of loneliness, every bit of void that i felt, that is why i'm so in to zombie surviving games lately.
Sometimes i feel like jz go off alone to see the world that i've been longing to see, the adventure, the excitement of being alone in a foreign world and explore the beauty and experience the danger, the mysteries, meet new people, and feel the world. Perhaps i wasn't afraid of being alone, the loneliness comes from the void of not being able to do what i have to, the fear of having nothing, the fear of losing everything, the fear of time passing, everyday seem shorter when scientist is saying that everyday is becoming longer. I want to be who i want to be, but fear gets the hold of me, fear of not being able to be or to live my dream, and i dream is what i fear to lose most, i don't want to be jz another zombie, i want to live my life, but i realized as the world nears modernization, materiality is what is more important than mere dreams and everyone seem to lose their dream as the grow older, i fear being one of them and one day i realizes that all the things we have and all the wealth we have can't be exchange for the dream we lost. I fear of growing old, i fear of growing old not being able to live my dream. Sometimes i'de rather be a little boy and enjoy everyday as it is because back then i don't need that much money, i don't need that much gadget, i don't need to eat the most expensive things, all i need is to wake up run around and dream that everyday is a happy day and everyone's happy. But now happiness lies in what we have, what i have, and what you have, it seems everyone love rich people and admires them, and can't seem to find happiness until they are one of them, everyone stuck in a material chase their whole life and eventually lose their childhood dreams, and sooner children would think like that wealth is everything, dreams and ideals would all be the same, everyone wants to be rich, and worst of all parents are planting the idea to their young of being rich instead dreams and adventures in life, everything now revolves around money sadly even love. Simple people live the happiest life, crazy people are always happy, normal people will only always be finding happiness. All my fears, my loneliness, is i think caused by the society today, where everything is measured not by heart but by gold.
I fear the world today, i fear of losing my dream, i fear of getting old, i fear of losing everything, i fear of having no purpose in life but to only become rich, i fear of surviving. I want to rest and sleep tight, i want a home, i want a dream, i want a life, i want Freedom.
But what i really realized was that zombies and surviving fascinates me so much is because it's whats inside of me. Don't get me wrong but i'm trying to survive in this world and every moment passed freaks me out, time seem to flow so fast i can't even take a grasp of what it's like the last moment or even any happy moments, every moment is a struggle to find my existence, every moment i try to find my cause, my goal, my future and a good rest too is hard to find my heart swarms with ideas, ideals, logic, sense, emotions, fear, everyday i have to find something to do, to distract me from those fear, those void that i felt every single time when i'm alone, even sometimes with everything going on i feel lonely, i struggle to shake those feeling off, but sometimes even with all those around me i still can't run from it, sometimes with everyone around me i feel like i'm trying to survive in a zombie outbreak, and every zombie is me, every zombie i shot is every fear i'm trying to kill in me, every bit of loneliness, every bit of void that i felt, that is why i'm so in to zombie surviving games lately.
Sometimes i feel like jz go off alone to see the world that i've been longing to see, the adventure, the excitement of being alone in a foreign world and explore the beauty and experience the danger, the mysteries, meet new people, and feel the world. Perhaps i wasn't afraid of being alone, the loneliness comes from the void of not being able to do what i have to, the fear of having nothing, the fear of losing everything, the fear of time passing, everyday seem shorter when scientist is saying that everyday is becoming longer. I want to be who i want to be, but fear gets the hold of me, fear of not being able to be or to live my dream, and i dream is what i fear to lose most, i don't want to be jz another zombie, i want to live my life, but i realized as the world nears modernization, materiality is what is more important than mere dreams and everyone seem to lose their dream as the grow older, i fear being one of them and one day i realizes that all the things we have and all the wealth we have can't be exchange for the dream we lost. I fear of growing old, i fear of growing old not being able to live my dream. Sometimes i'de rather be a little boy and enjoy everyday as it is because back then i don't need that much money, i don't need that much gadget, i don't need to eat the most expensive things, all i need is to wake up run around and dream that everyday is a happy day and everyone's happy. But now happiness lies in what we have, what i have, and what you have, it seems everyone love rich people and admires them, and can't seem to find happiness until they are one of them, everyone stuck in a material chase their whole life and eventually lose their childhood dreams, and sooner children would think like that wealth is everything, dreams and ideals would all be the same, everyone wants to be rich, and worst of all parents are planting the idea to their young of being rich instead dreams and adventures in life, everything now revolves around money sadly even love. Simple people live the happiest life, crazy people are always happy, normal people will only always be finding happiness. All my fears, my loneliness, is i think caused by the society today, where everything is measured not by heart but by gold.
I fear the world today, i fear of losing my dream, i fear of getting old, i fear of losing everything, i fear of having no purpose in life but to only become rich, i fear of surviving. I want to rest and sleep tight, i want a home, i want a dream, i want a life, i want Freedom.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Remember, remember the 5th of November
Remember, remember the 5th of November,
The gunpowder treason and plot,
I see no reason
Why the gunpowder treason,
The gunpowder treason and plot,
I see no reason
Why the gunpowder treason,
should ever be forgot.
Sounds familiar? well it's part of the poem of the gunpowder treason in England, which sounds cool for some reason, maybe it's because of the movie V for Vendetta. Brilliant movie if u ask me and i recommend everyone to watch it, specially here the country where i'm living.
Make no mistakes but i love my country the place where i was born, a small little country that seem to have everything, peace, protection from the fury of nature, abundant of resources, everything that makes a great country. until our GOV said we have financial issues which i think it's funny cause they're been buying second hand military stuff from other country, which are now using state of the art hi-tech new weapons and still could rip off something from the old junk by selling it to some country that is smart enough to have bought it. Air force 1 for our prime minister, and we teach our children never to spend more than what they earn and deserve, irony. Another wise word from the movie, "The people should not be afraid of the government, the government should be afraid of the people". And when everything went wrong it's obvious that we should voice out and speak our mind, not for the sake of our own pleasure but the people we love, our fellow countrymen, we have a choice of making the country we love a better place.
Very often people relate government to a country, but it's not the same thing, hating the government is not treason, siding the opposition is not a fault but a choice we make that we hoped that it would bring good to this country, our freedom is not in the hands of the few, our freedom lies in the choice we make, our freedom should and has always been in our own hands.
Change is a taboo in many people's mind, as change brings about uncertainty, uncertainty brings about fear, and fear is what they want us to feel when a certain government is spreading propaganda. But change can also bring about hope, a hope that we could be free from what we dislike and our freedom is not anymore lies within the interest of a few.
Freedom is more than words we speak or actions we do, freedom is opportunity for everyone to rise, freedom is the idea we could all share, an idea that one day we would all lived as equals as a free men.
A government's job is not to rule a country, but to run the country and to serve the country well, of all to defend the rights and freedom of the people. Without the people the government has no powers, without the government the people can form a new one. and this is all in our hands.
Maybe a revolution could change the world or at least the country we love and the freedom we longed for.
Sounds familiar? well it's part of the poem of the gunpowder treason in England, which sounds cool for some reason, maybe it's because of the movie V for Vendetta. Brilliant movie if u ask me and i recommend everyone to watch it, specially here the country where i'm living.
Make no mistakes but i love my country the place where i was born, a small little country that seem to have everything, peace, protection from the fury of nature, abundant of resources, everything that makes a great country. until our GOV said we have financial issues which i think it's funny cause they're been buying second hand military stuff from other country, which are now using state of the art hi-tech new weapons and still could rip off something from the old junk by selling it to some country that is smart enough to have bought it. Air force 1 for our prime minister, and we teach our children never to spend more than what they earn and deserve, irony. Another wise word from the movie, "The people should not be afraid of the government, the government should be afraid of the people". And when everything went wrong it's obvious that we should voice out and speak our mind, not for the sake of our own pleasure but the people we love, our fellow countrymen, we have a choice of making the country we love a better place.
Very often people relate government to a country, but it's not the same thing, hating the government is not treason, siding the opposition is not a fault but a choice we make that we hoped that it would bring good to this country, our freedom is not in the hands of the few, our freedom lies in the choice we make, our freedom should and has always been in our own hands.
Change is a taboo in many people's mind, as change brings about uncertainty, uncertainty brings about fear, and fear is what they want us to feel when a certain government is spreading propaganda. But change can also bring about hope, a hope that we could be free from what we dislike and our freedom is not anymore lies within the interest of a few.
Freedom is more than words we speak or actions we do, freedom is opportunity for everyone to rise, freedom is the idea we could all share, an idea that one day we would all lived as equals as a free men.
A government's job is not to rule a country, but to run the country and to serve the country well, of all to defend the rights and freedom of the people. Without the people the government has no powers, without the government the people can form a new one. and this is all in our hands.
Maybe a revolution could change the world or at least the country we love and the freedom we longed for.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
directions, ideas and activity wanted
it's been a long time, i'm getting estrange with this place,
and i've jz renovated the whole blog and everything looks better, at least to me it does.
i'm free, free from many things, waiting for results, waiting for days to pass,
can't seem to find myself an ideal part time job, and i'm learning to play the guitar,
yes i am, once a week and i can't stop imagining how well i can play later after i've learned everything, than i'll sing something and post it up here exclusively.
a word of advice, don't listen if i do really sing, you won't like it. but the fun part is still playing the guitar, i am saving to buy myself a guitar so if there is anyone kind enough to donate something
plz do tell me. :)
i'm still thinking of a direction to go writing this blog, more myself? more fun stuff? more reviews on various things? or jz keep track of my life and rant all i want?or make videos?
well i jz can't make up my mind, any ideas?
i know this is an old blog, but i kinda like this name alot so i continue using it and maybe from now going on a more interesting directions or topic, other than my rants and so on. but that doesn't mean i'll stop writing what my heart feels, it's still a place for me to express my thoughts.
also i'm in to gundam and figures lately and i bought myself some to add to my collection and hope to add more stuff in the future, well maybe this should be what i'm supposed to write about. anyways i'll share those pics with anyone still reading this blog later.
life is less active now and i really hope someone would call me up for some activity, hiking, jogging, anything, i want to be active again, and i'm getting fat, anyone plz hook me up with some activities, i'm so bored. boredom kills!!!
thats all for now, getting tired...good night...
and i've jz renovated the whole blog and everything looks better, at least to me it does.
i'm free, free from many things, waiting for results, waiting for days to pass,
can't seem to find myself an ideal part time job, and i'm learning to play the guitar,
yes i am, once a week and i can't stop imagining how well i can play later after i've learned everything, than i'll sing something and post it up here exclusively.
a word of advice, don't listen if i do really sing, you won't like it. but the fun part is still playing the guitar, i am saving to buy myself a guitar so if there is anyone kind enough to donate something
plz do tell me. :)
i'm still thinking of a direction to go writing this blog, more myself? more fun stuff? more reviews on various things? or jz keep track of my life and rant all i want?or make videos?
well i jz can't make up my mind, any ideas?
i know this is an old blog, but i kinda like this name alot so i continue using it and maybe from now going on a more interesting directions or topic, other than my rants and so on. but that doesn't mean i'll stop writing what my heart feels, it's still a place for me to express my thoughts.
also i'm in to gundam and figures lately and i bought myself some to add to my collection and hope to add more stuff in the future, well maybe this should be what i'm supposed to write about. anyways i'll share those pics with anyone still reading this blog later.
life is less active now and i really hope someone would call me up for some activity, hiking, jogging, anything, i want to be active again, and i'm getting fat, anyone plz hook me up with some activities, i'm so bored. boredom kills!!!
thats all for now, getting tired...good night...
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
How's the make over..?
well, here's the new look...still finding ways n ideas to make it better...
but for now i think this will do...
any updates in my life will start after i think i'm done renovating this junkyard...
well, thanks for still tuning in...if you're still tuning in...someone..?anyone...?
haha...still feels kinda quiet like always...
bye bye.
but for now i think this will do...
any updates in my life will start after i think i'm done renovating this junkyard...
well, thanks for still tuning in...if you're still tuning in...someone..?anyone...?
haha...still feels kinda quiet like always...
bye bye.
Friday, September 11, 2009
the freedom's junkyard...
freedom junkyard...
now, no more than a regular junkyard...
oh well, once in awhile the keeper comes in n sweep some dirt of his back...
leaving behind words that meant so little...
yet expresses alot of feelings...
yes...feelings...
in words...left behind by the keeper...
once in a while some stray comes in browse through the junkyard for something useful...
or entertaining piece of crap at least, but little does he noe that...
junkyard no matter how well renovated or cleaned is still a junkyard...
wasted words n thoughts left behind by the keeper...
for the freedom of the keeper, n others, if truly understands what the keeper meant all this time...
well, though full of crap...sometimes one may find something quite different from the other junk...
sometimes music flow softly through the junkyard...
sometimes wisdom of the keeper is engraved on this cracked walls...
sometimes sentimental echos can be heard as if the wind is telling something...
sometimes "emo" wave ripple across the vast wasteland...
sometimes..some trash note jz to make the keeper feel much better...
but when the keeper leave his boring junkyard...
to the world we all called reality...
he is no more but another man...
not the owner of some vast junkyard...
not someone with the freedom everyone dreamed for...
n words n thoughts cannot jz comes out of his mouth...
a world where everyone is bound to something...
something we cannot see...something we can only feel...
gravity...
from earth...
from other ppl...
from ourself...
to not let us dream...
to not let us speak...
as we all live in what we called reality...
but once in awhile...we see ppl who seemingly defy logic...
ppl we envy...
ppl with true freedom...
ppl we envy yet annoyed by their carefree thoughts..
cuz life to others is no more than to own things...
to impress...
to win...
but never to live free...
therefore the keeper created this junkyard...
to escape reality...
n yet not daring enuf to seek true freedom...
therefore he seek refuge in this wasteland...
to take a rest from the reality he is not daring enuf to defy...
this is the story of the freedom junkyard...
now, no more than a regular junkyard...
oh well, once in awhile the keeper comes in n sweep some dirt of his back...
leaving behind words that meant so little...
yet expresses alot of feelings...
yes...feelings...
in words...left behind by the keeper...
once in a while some stray comes in browse through the junkyard for something useful...
or entertaining piece of crap at least, but little does he noe that...
junkyard no matter how well renovated or cleaned is still a junkyard...
wasted words n thoughts left behind by the keeper...
for the freedom of the keeper, n others, if truly understands what the keeper meant all this time...
well, though full of crap...sometimes one may find something quite different from the other junk...
sometimes music flow softly through the junkyard...
sometimes wisdom of the keeper is engraved on this cracked walls...
sometimes sentimental echos can be heard as if the wind is telling something...
sometimes "emo" wave ripple across the vast wasteland...
sometimes..some trash note jz to make the keeper feel much better...
but when the keeper leave his boring junkyard...
to the world we all called reality...
he is no more but another man...
not the owner of some vast junkyard...
not someone with the freedom everyone dreamed for...
n words n thoughts cannot jz comes out of his mouth...
a world where everyone is bound to something...
something we cannot see...something we can only feel...
gravity...
from earth...
from other ppl...
from ourself...
to not let us dream...
to not let us speak...
as we all live in what we called reality...
but once in awhile...we see ppl who seemingly defy logic...
ppl we envy...
ppl with true freedom...
ppl we envy yet annoyed by their carefree thoughts..
cuz life to others is no more than to own things...
to impress...
to win...
but never to live free...
therefore the keeper created this junkyard...
to escape reality...
n yet not daring enuf to seek true freedom...
therefore he seek refuge in this wasteland...
to take a rest from the reality he is not daring enuf to defy...
this is the story of the freedom junkyard...
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
love is like a rose
love is like a rose,
that bloody red feeling of love,
that mesmerising beauty you felt in love,
that wondrous scent that made you fell in love with,
that thorn that pierce through our heart,
so pain yet so addicting,
such a dangerous beauty,
craved by many mortals and divines alike,
sacrificing everything for just a taste of it,
a taste of such sweet poison,
for all the pain and labour,
in exchange for such mysterious flower,
that gives pain and pleasure,
heartfelt and heartbreak,
such bloody red feeling,
such mesmerising beauty,
such wondrous scent,
such painful thorn,
yet only becuase of such feelings,
that keeps us all wondering,
that curious mixture of emotions,
that makes us all in love with that bloody rose.
-JiE-
that bloody red feeling of love,
that mesmerising beauty you felt in love,
that wondrous scent that made you fell in love with,
that thorn that pierce through our heart,
so pain yet so addicting,
such a dangerous beauty,
craved by many mortals and divines alike,
sacrificing everything for just a taste of it,
a taste of such sweet poison,
for all the pain and labour,
in exchange for such mysterious flower,
that gives pain and pleasure,
heartfelt and heartbreak,
such bloody red feeling,
such mesmerising beauty,
such wondrous scent,
such painful thorn,
yet only becuase of such feelings,
that keeps us all wondering,
that curious mixture of emotions,
that makes us all in love with that bloody rose.
-JiE-
Saturday, June 27, 2009
sad days, happy moments, great times...
it's been another long long weeks after my "emo" post...
haha...like they all say...u don't write a blog untill u feel emo...
but not today...
today's about alot of things...
n the 1st i wud like to address is the death of a legend...
Micheal Jackson...Rest in peace...
love your songs n will always do...
n i believe there wud never ever be another like MJ...
it's a sad sad day...
but the good news is my notebook is repaired...
i can now once again rule the world from my tiny room...
life is all great if any of u were thinking of how jie is lately...
still the same ol' jie u noe...
abit boring...less late nites...less games...i'm seriously getting old...
late nites makes me feel so tired...
plus for some reason i now have very limited late nite opportunity...
personal reasons...but daytime activity...is still very much A okay...
watched less movies...due to tighter budget...
but still manages to watch some that would make history....
terminator...not as great...but still not dissapointing...
good action...good actor...good director...huge budget...cool robots...
17 again...surprisingly good...
at 1st i thought it wud jz be another teen flick...
but it turns out that Zac is a really talented actor...
funny...romantic...meaningful...
must watch...no specially hot girls...but still worth a watch...
n than the all time favourite...
Transformers...
bigger action...more robots...richer story...n megan is still so hot...
if u miss this one...u'll live to regret that u've made a stupid mistake...4ever...dvd would never be the same...unless u have ur own home theater...with a 2 storey high silver screen...n an earth shaking surround sound system...if anyone of u have...plz give me a call...i wud love to be ur fren...
well, waiting for G.I Joe...it seem very promising...
oh yea before i forgot...angels and demons...not to say great...cuz it's easily forgotten when there are terminator n transformers competing...
but it's a good movie no doubt...
oh life is still so much so jie...but with some slight twist..
as i'm now controlled...n that is as much as i can say...
anyway...lets have a moment of silence to pay respect for the late MJ...
.
..
...
....
.....
....
...
..
.
n there u go...
time to sleep...good nite...good bye...good luck...
peace out...
haha...like they all say...u don't write a blog untill u feel emo...
but not today...
today's about alot of things...
n the 1st i wud like to address is the death of a legend...
Micheal Jackson...Rest in peace...
love your songs n will always do...
n i believe there wud never ever be another like MJ...
it's a sad sad day...
but the good news is my notebook is repaired...
i can now once again rule the world from my tiny room...
life is all great if any of u were thinking of how jie is lately...
still the same ol' jie u noe...
abit boring...less late nites...less games...i'm seriously getting old...
late nites makes me feel so tired...
plus for some reason i now have very limited late nite opportunity...
personal reasons...but daytime activity...is still very much A okay...
watched less movies...due to tighter budget...
but still manages to watch some that would make history....
terminator...not as great...but still not dissapointing...
good action...good actor...good director...huge budget...cool robots...
17 again...surprisingly good...
at 1st i thought it wud jz be another teen flick...
but it turns out that Zac is a really talented actor...
funny...romantic...meaningful...
must watch...no specially hot girls...but still worth a watch...
n than the all time favourite...
Transformers...
bigger action...more robots...richer story...n megan is still so hot...
if u miss this one...u'll live to regret that u've made a stupid mistake...4ever...dvd would never be the same...unless u have ur own home theater...with a 2 storey high silver screen...n an earth shaking surround sound system...if anyone of u have...plz give me a call...i wud love to be ur fren...
well, waiting for G.I Joe...it seem very promising...
oh yea before i forgot...angels and demons...not to say great...cuz it's easily forgotten when there are terminator n transformers competing...
but it's a good movie no doubt...
oh life is still so much so jie...but with some slight twist..
as i'm now controlled...n that is as much as i can say...
anyway...lets have a moment of silence to pay respect for the late MJ...
.
..
...
....
.....
....
...
..
.
n there u go...
time to sleep...good nite...good bye...good luck...
peace out...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
the real life, the real jie
i m jie..nothing more...
i used to think i'm a dreamer...
it turns out that my dreams are empty...
it's words decorated beauifully...to make myself special...to be someone with a difference...
i'm nothing more than a real person like everyone...that masked myself behind some made up dream to be different, i'm no more than some regular guy...
but it is only now that i understand that i've been hiding behind my so called dream for too long...
too long...
i used to think that i understands freedom...i practice freedom...but i don't...
i have freedom...oh yes i do...almost as much as i can get...but i'm not free...
i thought that i can understand free will so good that i can actually don't care about some stuff...
but i can't...my minds r not free...i m filled with jealousy...haunted by self doubt...hungry for recognition...living in total lost n sadness...
as i now know that i'm not living free...i'm merely running free...like a mad man trying to escape the truth...living in dreams...finding happiness in lies created by myself...living high by stepping on other's mistake, which i eventually make them myself...how low can one get...?
i'm really sorry...
i've been living a lie...
a lie which i wanted it to be true...
i'm but a narrow minded person living in a lie to live higher n greater...which would fall...n crash...n i wud eventually lose everything...i'm awake n i'm god damn tired...
now i jz wan to be free...really free from those lies...free from negative thoughts n feelings...
too tired to go on telling lies to everything i've done to make myself better...
i now jz wan to be useful...n start to find myself a path which i always runs from...a goal to achieve..a dream to fulfill...
well...now i'm too tired to go on...good nite...hate me, scold me, laugh at me as u like...i'm sorry...
i used to think i'm a dreamer...
it turns out that my dreams are empty...
it's words decorated beauifully...to make myself special...to be someone with a difference...
i'm nothing more than a real person like everyone...that masked myself behind some made up dream to be different, i'm no more than some regular guy...
but it is only now that i understand that i've been hiding behind my so called dream for too long...
too long...
i used to think that i understands freedom...i practice freedom...but i don't...
i have freedom...oh yes i do...almost as much as i can get...but i'm not free...
i thought that i can understand free will so good that i can actually don't care about some stuff...
but i can't...my minds r not free...i m filled with jealousy...haunted by self doubt...hungry for recognition...living in total lost n sadness...
as i now know that i'm not living free...i'm merely running free...like a mad man trying to escape the truth...living in dreams...finding happiness in lies created by myself...living high by stepping on other's mistake, which i eventually make them myself...how low can one get...?
i'm really sorry...
i've been living a lie...
a lie which i wanted it to be true...
i'm but a narrow minded person living in a lie to live higher n greater...which would fall...n crash...n i wud eventually lose everything...i'm awake n i'm god damn tired...
now i jz wan to be free...really free from those lies...free from negative thoughts n feelings...
too tired to go on telling lies to everything i've done to make myself better...
i now jz wan to be useful...n start to find myself a path which i always runs from...a goal to achieve..a dream to fulfill...
well...now i'm too tired to go on...good nite...hate me, scold me, laugh at me as u like...i'm sorry...
Friday, March 20, 2009
better than ever...
well, life can never be better i tell u all...
1st i have a fren with a family problem...in which i'm accused of being someone i'm not...seriously u dun wanna know what...u wun believe it anyway...
that cause quite an uproar here with one of my other fren, in which also being accused of being that kind of person he's not...
n some others with some kind of funny jokes...well, life ain't easy for my fren here...haha...but lately i think he's quite ok...did talked abit about stuff that happened...he's fine...
2nd of all i've spoiled my very own computer...early forensic states that it's the burn-up or breakdown of the motherboard...will send it to the HP centre for further investigation...but it sucks big time...now i'm resorting to internet cafe of my brothers computer...all my songs n files are gone...rest in peace...
n when things can't get any better...here comes the ipod...with the keypad malfunction...n here goes my daily jogging routine with my songs...n i'm sending it in to the factory too...they say bad things comes twice...n i got it 3 times...well, theres a saying that when things can't get any worst...good luck wud come...hopefully it's true...cuz i'm desparate for luck...
well...maybe i'm abit bad luck but i do stumble upon some good movies too...maybe one...it's marley n me...it's not that entertaining in the trailer...but as always, never trust the trailer...it turn out to be good...simple comedy...some reality...some happy stuff...some sad stuff...n one good movie...shud go for it...if u're looking for something fun n easy...n some tears for some ppl...
what's life without some bad luck..?bad luck seem to come quite often as they always do, cuz we dun really seem to remember good things that happened...taking things for granted is like what we do best...we're born with that talent...we jz have to keep on living...
bad stuff will go n good stuff will come...
Chao~~
1st i have a fren with a family problem...in which i'm accused of being someone i'm not...seriously u dun wanna know what...u wun believe it anyway...
that cause quite an uproar here with one of my other fren, in which also being accused of being that kind of person he's not...
n some others with some kind of funny jokes...well, life ain't easy for my fren here...haha...but lately i think he's quite ok...did talked abit about stuff that happened...he's fine...
2nd of all i've spoiled my very own computer...early forensic states that it's the burn-up or breakdown of the motherboard...will send it to the HP centre for further investigation...but it sucks big time...now i'm resorting to internet cafe of my brothers computer...all my songs n files are gone...rest in peace...
n when things can't get any better...here comes the ipod...with the keypad malfunction...n here goes my daily jogging routine with my songs...n i'm sending it in to the factory too...they say bad things comes twice...n i got it 3 times...well, theres a saying that when things can't get any worst...good luck wud come...hopefully it's true...cuz i'm desparate for luck...
well...maybe i'm abit bad luck but i do stumble upon some good movies too...maybe one...it's marley n me...it's not that entertaining in the trailer...but as always, never trust the trailer...it turn out to be good...simple comedy...some reality...some happy stuff...some sad stuff...n one good movie...shud go for it...if u're looking for something fun n easy...n some tears for some ppl...
what's life without some bad luck..?bad luck seem to come quite often as they always do, cuz we dun really seem to remember good things that happened...taking things for granted is like what we do best...we're born with that talent...we jz have to keep on living...
bad stuff will go n good stuff will come...
Chao~~
Friday, March 13, 2009
life on the run...
everyone...!!!i've watched Dragonball...
don't watch it now!!!if u want to, watch with a student card...
it doesn't worth the 10bucks u'll b paying...trust me...
but it's not really such a bad movie...quite entertaining, quite funny...n the girls are hot...go watch it if u're out of movies to watch...
but if u wan to go for something good...maybe great...go for 7pounds...
i'm not gonna spoil anything here...go watch it urself...
will smith is always my hero...
i'm a little confuse lately, or shall i say frustrated...with alot fo things...
study, life n stuff...u know...stuff...haha...thinking of many things...
my mind is never quiet...even now i'm thinking...of something...of someone...ARGHHHH!!!!!!i hate this kind of feeling...i jz wan to be free...
but i've found a way to give me some peace...
even for a moment it feel so good that i wan to do it again...
of'cuz...it's not drugs...no drugs here in my blog...!!!got that...?!!!
running...i've been running again lately...too much thinking thats y...
everytime i run i feel so free...all i have in mind is to run n run n run n run...nothing else...n after i reach my goal/destination i can't feel anything but tired n some little aching feeling that makes me feel so alive...n all i can do is laugh...n everything seem so calm n peaceful...
but than again...the nex day everything came back...n i feel like running again...haha...i guess u jz can't run away from problems...haha...
oh well, tomorrow i off to find that moment of peace again...haha...
i know no one really reads my blog...but...i would like to ask if there anyone...interested in hiking/jogging...find me..maybe we can group some ppl n form some group or something that we can all do this together...i mean maybe u're looking for some incentives to do some exercise...n this may be a good thing...but...i guess kids nowadays like clubs, drinks, money, games n sex..more than anything haha...jkjk...
anyway...u know where to find me...here...
peace out..~~
don't watch it now!!!if u want to, watch with a student card...
it doesn't worth the 10bucks u'll b paying...trust me...
but it's not really such a bad movie...quite entertaining, quite funny...n the girls are hot...go watch it if u're out of movies to watch...
but if u wan to go for something good...maybe great...go for 7pounds...
i'm not gonna spoil anything here...go watch it urself...
will smith is always my hero...
i'm a little confuse lately, or shall i say frustrated...with alot fo things...
study, life n stuff...u know...stuff...haha...thinking of many things...
my mind is never quiet...even now i'm thinking...of something...of someone...ARGHHHH!!!!!!i hate this kind of feeling...i jz wan to be free...
but i've found a way to give me some peace...
even for a moment it feel so good that i wan to do it again...
of'cuz...it's not drugs...no drugs here in my blog...!!!got that...?!!!
running...i've been running again lately...too much thinking thats y...
everytime i run i feel so free...all i have in mind is to run n run n run n run...nothing else...n after i reach my goal/destination i can't feel anything but tired n some little aching feeling that makes me feel so alive...n all i can do is laugh...n everything seem so calm n peaceful...
but than again...the nex day everything came back...n i feel like running again...haha...i guess u jz can't run away from problems...haha...
oh well, tomorrow i off to find that moment of peace again...haha...
i know no one really reads my blog...but...i would like to ask if there anyone...interested in hiking/jogging...find me..maybe we can group some ppl n form some group or something that we can all do this together...i mean maybe u're looking for some incentives to do some exercise...n this may be a good thing...but...i guess kids nowadays like clubs, drinks, money, games n sex..more than anything haha...jkjk...
anyway...u know where to find me...here...
peace out..~~
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Life...!~~~
i've been tagged..but i'm very sorry YC i'm jz too lazy...n u dun wan to know whats on my playlist...yall might think that i came from the 80's haha...
so plz try not to tag me, everyone...i'm a lazy time travelling freak...i love peace...haha...
i wan to see the world, i wan to feel the difference, i wan to taste the sweetness, i wan to share their sorrow n to experience their happiness...i wan to backpack around the world...!!!!
well often when i speak of enjoying life what comes into ppl's mind is money that wud be spent...thats stereotyping...!!!enjoying life is to cherish life, not to spend money...n often they wud consider those with a free spirit immature becuz they r not thinking of making big money, they r not thinking of being at the top of the corporation chart, they r not thinking of owning the world...all they think is to enjoy life as it is...n to share it with the world...n letting go n be free...often there ideas are considered impossible n stupid n of'cuz immature n a taboo...specially in a conservative society...but if those "matured" dude are matured enuf they shud have understand that life ain't complicated, life is nothing more than simple n free...but us humans are complicated, often obses with fame, wealth, power n desires...selfishly keeping everything to themselves, making money n money n money n money...owning everything they want...having everything...almost everything but the pure simplicity of life n freedom...they enjoyed luxury stuff but they don't see how it come to exist...they feel n taste the best in which is calculated n measured by money but the best things in life is everything around u its life itself...of'cuz living free isn't living rich...everyone can live rich but not every1 can live free...every1 can own everything but not every1 can share eveything...so tell me whos immature..?
haha...well i'm jz trying to whine my way through boredom...dun take it too seriously it's jz my point of view...anyway...damn tired rite now...chao..!!~~
good nite everyone...~~
so plz try not to tag me, everyone...i'm a lazy time travelling freak...i love peace...haha...
i wan to see the world, i wan to feel the difference, i wan to taste the sweetness, i wan to share their sorrow n to experience their happiness...i wan to backpack around the world...!!!!
well often when i speak of enjoying life what comes into ppl's mind is money that wud be spent...thats stereotyping...!!!enjoying life is to cherish life, not to spend money...n often they wud consider those with a free spirit immature becuz they r not thinking of making big money, they r not thinking of being at the top of the corporation chart, they r not thinking of owning the world...all they think is to enjoy life as it is...n to share it with the world...n letting go n be free...often there ideas are considered impossible n stupid n of'cuz immature n a taboo...specially in a conservative society...but if those "matured" dude are matured enuf they shud have understand that life ain't complicated, life is nothing more than simple n free...but us humans are complicated, often obses with fame, wealth, power n desires...selfishly keeping everything to themselves, making money n money n money n money...owning everything they want...having everything...almost everything but the pure simplicity of life n freedom...they enjoyed luxury stuff but they don't see how it come to exist...they feel n taste the best in which is calculated n measured by money but the best things in life is everything around u its life itself...of'cuz living free isn't living rich...everyone can live rich but not every1 can live free...every1 can own everything but not every1 can share eveything...so tell me whos immature..?
haha...well i'm jz trying to whine my way through boredom...dun take it too seriously it's jz my point of view...anyway...damn tired rite now...chao..!!~~
good nite everyone...~~
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
back n ready...
finally back on the line...
ohh...what to say, what to say...
i've been losing touch with it now i don't really know what to write about...
alright...lets start with what i'v been up to lately...
alot...hiking alot...fooling around alot...due to the fact that i have alot more time than any of my frens...can u imagine one class a week...thats how much time i have...but sooner or later i'll have to be like some of them who have to study like hell day and night...but till than, life is to be enjoyed...
movies u ask...?oh well...kinda lose touch with movies too...
but i'm gonna make up with it weeks to come...
but i still manages to watch some....
like the curious case of benjamin button and eden lake...thats jz about it....
sad isn't it...yea...but this week alot more is coming out...n hell i'm gonna storm the cinema...
well the review for benjamin button from me was great...
good movie...abit of laughter, abit of sadness, abit of imagination...n abit of brad pitt and kate blanchett...beautiful...good movie, must watch...
eden lake however...suck big time...abit of gore, abit of silly gangster wannabe british teenager, n abit of stupid couple who got killed in the end...but...the girl was beautiful tho...but it won't help much to save the ratings of the movie...u'll still walk out of the cinema feeling like u jz got punked by some british director...thats how sad it is...
well i have my eyes set of punisher...n others too...
will be back with the review...
n let me enjoy the joy of being back on line...happily ever after...
chao...!!!gonna surf the net...
ohh...what to say, what to say...
i've been losing touch with it now i don't really know what to write about...
alright...lets start with what i'v been up to lately...
alot...hiking alot...fooling around alot...due to the fact that i have alot more time than any of my frens...can u imagine one class a week...thats how much time i have...but sooner or later i'll have to be like some of them who have to study like hell day and night...but till than, life is to be enjoyed...
movies u ask...?oh well...kinda lose touch with movies too...
but i'm gonna make up with it weeks to come...
but i still manages to watch some....
like the curious case of benjamin button and eden lake...thats jz about it....
sad isn't it...yea...but this week alot more is coming out...n hell i'm gonna storm the cinema...
well the review for benjamin button from me was great...
good movie...abit of laughter, abit of sadness, abit of imagination...n abit of brad pitt and kate blanchett...beautiful...good movie, must watch...
eden lake however...suck big time...abit of gore, abit of silly gangster wannabe british teenager, n abit of stupid couple who got killed in the end...but...the girl was beautiful tho...but it won't help much to save the ratings of the movie...u'll still walk out of the cinema feeling like u jz got punked by some british director...thats how sad it is...
well i have my eyes set of punisher...n others too...
will be back with the review...
n let me enjoy the joy of being back on line...happily ever after...
chao...!!!gonna surf the net...
Saturday, February 7, 2009
bad week
what a week...what a week...
no internet connection....
class is only once a week...
lost my beloved neckleass somewhere in my house...i guess...
n the worst of all...Katrina Darrell is out of American Idol...
what can be worst than that...?tell me...tell me...!!!!
ok thats it i'm out of here coming to internet cafe to do blog stuff is jz lame....n i'm doing it...i'm lame...
so...gonna go play some games now...
i'll pawn someone so bad to make up for this lame-ness....hopefully...
n of'cuz becuz, they kick Katrina out of american idol...WHY...?!!!
u've jz made ur ratings gone down american idol...u hear me...?!!!
peace out...
no internet connection....
class is only once a week...
lost my beloved neckleass somewhere in my house...i guess...
n the worst of all...Katrina Darrell is out of American Idol...
what can be worst than that...?tell me...tell me...!!!!
ok thats it i'm out of here coming to internet cafe to do blog stuff is jz lame....n i'm doing it...i'm lame...
so...gonna go play some games now...
i'll pawn someone so bad to make up for this lame-ness....hopefully...
n of'cuz becuz, they kick Katrina out of american idol...WHY...?!!!
u've jz made ur ratings gone down american idol...u hear me...?!!!
peace out...
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