so beautiful yet so regretful...

good morning...

today i'm going to tell a whole lot about stuff that happened for the last 1 week...
i went to Bangkok for like 4 days n 3 nights...well, it was fun...a shopping heaven, it sure is...lots of cheap stuff, food, fashion stuff, n girls...i mean girl stuff...ah...whatever...!!!anyway went shopping...went to the crocadile farm, snake farm(well they have a big farm there...but...it's kinda empty, n they have alot less snakes compare to my dad's farm), n the safari(which the nicest place of all the place i been in bangkok)...i'm gonna cut the crap on the description, if u really wanna know how u can either ask me when u see me on9(but it's better if u dun...but i dun think any1 will anyway...)or u can go there n check it out urself....here comes the best part for the guys...they got lotsa chics over there if u know what i mean...yeah dude...it's awesom but the most i did is watch...i know i suck...but show me something better...n i love the food...nice...spicy...good food anyway...
well i can't really said that it's the best holiday but it's certainly a great one...n i got to stay in this cool tallest hotel in south east asia(but i'm not living on the top floor...but hey i get to visit the top floor n enjoyed the great buffet up there...i can't ask for more...)the place is jz beautiful...but some place is kinda dirty, n i saw this one kid begging...i can't help but to think that how much can i help?...but...i jz walked pass like everyone did...i did nothing...like everyone else i walked pass him, i felt so bad...the only thing that i regret doing is walking pass that lil kid...i walked pass him...i din even spare a penny of what i had, what makes me deserve the money more that he does...?n i've been saying alot about that stupid stuff of making the world a better place n the world a beautiful place...n i can't even spare some for those who needs it more than i do, i can't even lend a helping hand, now i can't really find a reason that i deserve more than he does, now i feel i'm more a hypocrit more than anyone else, i feel like a jerk...i'm not who i really think i am...i'm nothing more than any other who is selfish, nothing more than those who try to think of themself a good person, nothing more that a jerk...god bless that poor kid, n i can't ever forgive myself for being such...no one deserve any less than i do...yet all that i've done so far...is nothing but empty words...sorry....

i also watched national treasure...it was one of the best...love it alot...i'm not gonna spoil anything here...go watched it urself...n u'll love it...n than went to the christmas bbq party that me n my frens organized...it was fun, we talked alot...untill 4 something i guess...n than i went to another fren's place...n than i fetch his whole family to the airport...n than i sleep till 1 something this afternoon....

n than i went out to wei yang's house after i fetch kim hin, n we waited awhile for weng yu n then we all went to sunway carnival...to tell u the truth i was a dissapointment...nothing much to talk about over there...then we went to auto city, now that place is kinda beautiful, but small...we sat at starbucks for some coffee n we had some great times there chatting, i jz love it there at starbucks, the music, the coffee...the frens, the view...relaxing...n then we head to this hongkie restaurant, for dinner...well it was nothing much...kinda like a dissapointment too...ok yea...we chose the wrong place to eat...we than chat again for awhile...n than head back to the loveliest island of all..Penang...we than went to gurney plaza, after that walk around gurney drive, n than we decided to go penang road, but theres no place to park, so we than went to esplanade...than we head back home...n than i watched american pie that i lent from my fren, n than now i'm here writting my hearts out...

actually it is a beautiful week...but i've did something that i regreted...n now i realise i'm nothing more than those who speak empty words, i'm nothing more than a selfish hypocrit...sorry...

if santa ur're really hearing everything i'm saying...i'm not the one i said i am...n the lil kid there deserve so much more than i can even do in my life...if there is really a santa or someone, plz...give that kid the life he deserve, n give me nothing in return, i've had the luckiest life...i'm sorry...

merry christmas n happy new year everyone...share while u can, or regret being a selfish fool...

jie the jerk...